My Breathing Space

Simply exceptional ordinary..

2009-07-19T23:30:00.007+08:00

Have I found you?? And if I ever to lost you..ever..i don’t think I can ever be in love again..to be madly in love to be exact..cause u own my heart..u hold the key..u r my handler..n I love u..more than u can imagine..cause u make me shine..cause u make me felt special..cause when u are around, u made my earth moves..cause u make me nervous...cause u lead me when I’m lost..cause u always there when I need u the most..cause u just being urself..there’s no lies, no pretending..u r no plastic..u made me just being me..just being myself..n I got to be me..i think I had found u..found my king..found my man..found a guy who still can make me laugh when I 'm sad..who dry my tears when I cried..who hold my hands when i'm nervous..who keep it warm when it felt cold..who believe in me..who claims me as his exceptional ordinary..I heart u..

Truly yours...Neesa

The one that keep pushing me as days went by..

2009-07-02T09:17:00.004+08:00

When you are sad - I will dry your tears...
When you are scared - I will comfort your fears...
When you are worried - i will give you hope...
When you are confused - I will help you cope...
And when you are lost and can't see the light...
I shall be your beacon - shining ever so bright...
This is my oath - i pledge till the end...
Why you may ask? - because you're my tired.

Truly MMHA's...Neesa

Her love letters (2)

2009-06-19T22:36:00.002+08:00

Sleepy, vaguely overwrought, listening to a love song, thinking of you. Feeling like I’m in a tunnel, and you’re the light at the end of it, the blueness of the sky, infinity and more. I think I could disappear in you, I’m indeed afraid to disappear in you.

Everything’s so simple, really. It’s been ages since I believed in anything. I’ve been a pragmatic and intellectual lover and I’m just ready to fall again. So, I’m looking for you, I see you in every faces that passes by already. When you stop and smile, I’ll be ready and waiting, and I’ll fall off the side of the earth again. My friends will be exasperated, they always are, they had such high hopes that I would talk about whatever, instead of running off to somewhere completely gazing into your eyes or shivering down my spine, holding hands and everything else.

When I find you, and maybe you’re already here, in the next room looking for your notebook as I write, I will give you this letter, and you won’t laugh, you’ll understand, and we’ll marvel at how psychic I am.

So, I am pathetic, too bad, this is how I’ve always been, my whole personality is formed in relation to love, in wait for you.

Can’t wait to meet u Mr. Right!

I haven't saw him since our last dinner on the May, 30th...will be seeing him again the first week week of next month, Insya Allah. Yea, it's been a while, but i'm sure it's gonna be all worth it when we met. Hanya Tuhan sja tahu how much i've been missing you and I still am...obviously i can't really wait for our next rendezvous soon! =)

Truly had found her Mr. Right...Neesa

Her love letters

2009-06-19T22:16:00.005+08:00

I like to write..a lot! When the ideas are pouring in and i got nothing else to do, writing is the first on my to-do list..i do a bit of packing juz now and found these love letters inside my boxes..i don't remember when i wrote them, but mybe during my Form 3 or 4 kali..ehe..at dat tym, i wanna get them framed and gave them as one of my Hantaran thingy for my future-to-be husband..zaman kanak2 dulu, kuat angan2 ta jua..huhu..i wonder whether it will come true some day, to get them laminated and gave them to him with my secondary handwritings yg ala2 classic gitu..haha..i'm privileged to show them all to u..as you are special to me as well =)

You…

I haven’t met you yet. But I listen to this song, and the way it makes me feel, it makes me know you. And hope that I will meet you one day. Because it is the feeling of being in love and I know it’s ridiculous to feel this from listening to a song, but…

You…

Who are you, where are you, and why is it taking so long? I don’t even see you on the horizon, but one day, there you will be, no questions need answering and forever will loom in front of us, something, days, weeks, years, all with this feeling at the bottom of it, chills going through my stomach, and the biggest, stupidest smile on my face reflected back to me on your face.

Because, I am still a 15 year old girl wanting to spend forever with that boy, the one who says impossible things that I believe. I’ve got the grin on my face just thinking about it. I won’t do anything to charm you, and when I charm you any way you won’t print it out in a way that make me feel self-conscious, makes me start performing for you. And I won’t think you’re annoying or clingy because you love me, and sent me love letters, I won’t have to suppress the urge to laugh at you, because…

Because I’ll believe in you.

And it can’t be true, and I’ll never meet you and this letter is impossibly mortifying. Still…I can’t wait and I miss you, and I love you.

Please forgive my imperfect expression of all this.

The second one will be coming in a short while yea =D

Truly MMHA's...Neesa

Randomly Post-ed

2009-06-14T23:22:00.005+08:00

This particular post will be just a quick one. I got this from a fren of mine. Something that worth a thought..

"Memories play a confusing role. They make u laugh when u remember the time u cried together but make u cry when u remember the time u laughed together..."

I juz realized that MBS (My Breathing Space) had turn 1 year old last 14th May..ehe.. i knew it's gonna be in May, but not sure the date bila..i juz checked just now n my first ever posting is on the 14th itself..i still like this layout..very greenish..just like my soul..hijau senantiasa..eseh~liat lah dulu if i wanna change it or not, but, if i did..it's gonna be in green as well..coz hijau itulah duniaku ^_^

- HAPPY 1st MBS -

I don't know whether YOU will read my blog or not, but if YOU do..i'd like to sink into you. and go to sleep. for a good, long while. It's just that when you are far, far away from me, without realising it, it silently hurts me.. xoxo

Truly missing YOU...Neesa

8 days in counting

2009-05-23T09:26:00.006+08:00

Feeling different lately..sometimes felt ada butterfiles in my tummy altho nda tau apa sja yg kn d ingaukn..whehe..i don't really know how to define this emotion of mine..is it a good or a bad thing? or is it a bad good thing? haha..adakn? i told u i don't know how to categorise the emotion..the important thing is that only i knew about it and intend not to share it wif others coz i find it quite embarrasing..huhu..apakn? eheh..owh well, blame it on the mood swings ppl! =D

Yg penting saya happy..the rest lantaklah..i have to be selfish sometimes, nda ja? And now, i got to be one *yeay* The graduation moments are still on my head..haha..majal! but hey, it's one of those days that u won't ever want to forget for the rest of ur life, ryte? Unless u got amnesia..huhu..*knock wood* Alhamdulillah, all went well n i'm greatful for that =D

At this very moment, i'm kinda nervous waiting for the HECAS result..huhu..i dun evn know wat to expect, have no choice but to juz wait n see the outcomes nanti on the May, 31st..if ada rezeki, there will be certain issues that i need to settle wif certain ppl n i'm gonna be so busy wif the procedures and stuff..eheh..bz lagi..owh well, u got to do wat u got to do..ryte? That's life..n dat make it evn more beautiful =)

I sounded so down n stressful in my previous post about my work life..but now, i'm fine..try to keep up n pick things here n there and lastly, try to stay positive at all times! ehe..so far, i'm able to enjoy watver tasks dat i'm doing currently..the last tym tu mybe i felt so pressured with the due dates n my personal life..but now, i'm back on track n felt as good as new..whehe..beside kan saya ni good mood, kalau saya good mood, saya akan berasa happy dan bila saya berasa happy, saya akan senyum, dan bila saya senyum, saya akan merasa tidak stress, dan bila saya tidak merasa stress, saya akan berasa damai dan hati saya pun terasa lapang..haha *panats* i think i better stop now..whehe..wanna get a manicure later eyh..sapa mau join? =D

Truly in a very good mood...Neesa

We all done it!

2009-05-21T22:08:00.006+08:00

Hye readers..a quick shout out ~ I'M OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!!!

This few weeks had been crazy n I’m loving it..ehe..I felt happy to the max..i don’t even know how to start telling u guys what are they all about =)

After over a month, I finally met him last week. It had been super duper great..whehe..spending time having lunch on the first day of rehearsal n movie-ing at the Empire on the full dress rehearsal day was fun! Lama dh nda out for lunch wif him..it’s been like forever since we spend our quality tym together..n I must say the time spent last week together had been a quality one indeed! Ehe..

ITB held its 18^th Convocation for Intake 22 on the 16^th of May, 2009. A very last minute I must say, we were informed only a week earlier..i was expecting it to be on the 23^rd, but..yea, it turned out good at the end..ehe..coz I could never been happier to be around with my lovely classmates n loved ones. It’s mcm reunion all over again, to be wif all the lecturers, catching up stories wif the colleagues, ada yg bekraja udh, ada yg in the process of looking out for jobs n lastly, to be wif my other half...

I would never think that my graduation day would be so special..never expect dat someone special to be there wif me..beside my parents ofcourse..ehe..but he’s around..we r graduating together..taking pictures, enjoying the lovely, happy moments..i’m proud of him..and I thank Allah for all the good things that happen between us..we had been perfect together =)

And…this week is great as well..we do keep in touch everyday..n right now, i’m waiting for another DN moments this weekend..yeay..i really, really can’t wait my dear..

* for the graduation momento, u all can see them at my fb ayte =)

Truly his...Neesa

She cries today...

2009-05-06T22:11:00.005+08:00

Just had a bad, rough day at work just now...and i think being so self-involved is totally full of damn crap! And yeah, i'm lashing all my dissapointment and anger thru driving after work..huhu..after i arrived at the tuition centre, i just stayed for a while in the car to calm and ease my mind...listening to songs..tried to call him just to hear his voice but i bet he's sleeping, so i msg a fren instead..hmm, will talk to her abt it tomorrow mrng at work, so had to go there earlier lah ni to spill out everything..miss my punching bag, he will know how to make me feel so much better..i want to stop all these..i think i'm gonna let everything go~i will let it go..i'm quitting..

Truly crushed...Neesa

The C word! ehe..

2009-05-05T23:21:00.003+08:00

Convo or graduation nda lama lg ni eyh..ready dh kmu kmu semua?? Whehe..i juz bought a black shoe last Sunday n gonna pick up my baju kurung sometym this wk or next wk kali..it’s been 1 mnth dh in the production line, hope that it’s all ready by next wk..yeay..hmm..apa lg a, aku NERVOUS bh! Ehe..tp HAPPY coz I made it! Ada mental probs kali tu if ada yg nda happy dpt HND..ehe..n aku nervous coz HECAS result will be out at the end of this month, Insya Allah..so, yea..for those yg kn further studies tu, I’m sure dat u know n understand how much I worry and a lil bit kiasu abt my future path..hope ada rezeki nanti..AMIN, AMIN, AMIN… =)

Truly can't wait to hold my HND...Neesa

What's new?

2009-05-05T23:10:00.004+08:00

So many things happen between the intervals..my Sara injured due to the other party mistake..huhu..cian, nda jua smpai sebulan, kana ‘katok’ tia dh..but now ia sexy dh balik..whehe..n malam td, I got a new green fren, alum plng ku bagi nama..biar tia dulu..but for sure, since ia green, so, ia bini2 lh tu..haha..apakn? msti kamu semua paning membaca post ku ni..layan ja bui~ kpalaku paning tym ani dh..mcm ada star ja kuar dri my head..tehee..luan overdose krja kali dh =P

But the unforgettable one would be the recent interview that I had last thurs with one of the local uni in Bndr..huhu..blur much..honestly, this is the blurrest interview that I had been so far..i dun evn dunno how to describe my whole experience at that tym..hopefully I managed to get thru coz I really, really can’t wait to hug a textbook again..ehe..n I’m sure this tym..it’s goona be buku2 yg tebal2 belaka..chewah..haha..i miss studying bnrnya..ehe..3 more mnths to go hatiqu, sabar ya! Nanti boleh blajar n nda pyh lg kn strez psal selfish2 person..at least strez psal assignment sja lai~ =)

Truly hope ada good news nanti!...Neesa

Tanpa…

2009-05-05T22:44:00.005+08:00

Missing my blogging life. Hmm…actually, I had to do something at the mo..had assignments for next wk’s HR training which is due this Friday..it involves few preparations such as lots of paperworks n a presentation..huhu..felt trapped lately, kinda exhausted n dreadfully alone..mcm no one is there with me to give words of wisdom or kata2 semangat..it’s been 1 month n enough said, I miss his voice..

Stress ah lately..wif my work..mcm2 sja ulah org ni ku jmpa..f ku balas balik, mcm nda hormat plng usulnya, tp the more I kept it inside..hmm..i’m afraid in the end I’m gonna be a time bomb, juz waiting for the right time to explode..! Luckily I got someone at work that’s very close to me to whom I can relate wif regarding my current probs..i can say that we r facing the same probs jua lh..n due to all these, my work pun kdg2 pending psal I felt that no use jua if I’m juz doing the work n org lain yg dpt rewards! When it comes to finger pointing, lajuth nda mengakun..sapa jua yg kana..nada lain, aku jua..kepisan! hmm..i always believe in karma..so, kdg2 I dun want to burden my mind wif the non important person in my life..i dun even think they even worth my thought! Paning ja kpala memikirkan..hope dat person sadar n jgn kn makan gaji buta saja..u got to work to earn it..bru th halal..!

Typical attitude..nda dpt kn meliat org lain happy dlm membuat krja, ada2 saja kn dicari salah or kna suruh..kdg2 I dun really mind but there’s tym when I can get very tired doing work for 2 ppl ..ia jua krja diri kn dpikirkn, then krjanya lg..hmm..so, when I felt that I can’t take it anymore..i juz answer that particular person that I got work to do n sorry I can’t entertain u at the mo..huhu..i know I sounded ‘kasar’ but I had to do wat I had to do so that I dun suffer in the end..ergh..seriously ppl! I’m really pissed, better plng I’m doing double job wif double pay..tantu tu eyh, nda plng ku naleh..evn naleh pun, at least it’s gonna be soo worth it..

Truly being proactive...Neesa

"Fed-up" with Everything!

2009-04-15T12:32:00.004+08:00

How would you feel if someone that u relied upon for years failed you?

How would you react if someone you love hurt you?

How would you feel if someone you trust betrayed you?

How would you react if someone you looked up to stab you from behind?

How exactly would you feel???

- I guess it won't be a wonderful feeling after all...kan?

I'm not gonna pinpoint any particular person here, everyone made silly mistake once in a while..i ever did..n i'm sure every single person did as well..we're not perfect but as a community or as a group, we all need to understand n try to fill up or complement our imperfection with the rest of the team and make the best out of it..!

It's gonna be just a random post this tym, just need to get one thing out of my head ryte now..just found out few months back that a former fren of mine (or i can say a 'no-longer fren of mine') had been engaged..the person just lost without any news or i can say, that person is just went missing into thin air..

Hope that the person is well matured ryte now and stop passing a girl around to his bessie like he used to do..a girl won't like to be that kind of 'sacrifices'..mcm in movie th plang.."I'm gonna undur diri coz i think he deserves u more than i did!"...C'mon, ani real life kali a, a lady will have to think thousand times before she said the 3 magic words to her man..and once it's done, the love nda dpt kn d transfer2 lagi to other ppl..The ending of the story: that lady won't choose neither coz her man is just plain stupid for simply giving away his lady, the same goes to the man's best friend for being such a traitor or from the lady's point of view, he's not such a good fren. Hmm..there, i said it!!

Morale of the story: Lady is not like a ball that guys can pasing2 around skati...she's also a human being for god's sake..has a heart and a soul..n in the end, sapa rugi nah? The guys lah, not the lady..maybe she did deserve better than those 2 BFF! =)

Truly satisfied...Neesa

"Just extraordinary being with you.."

2009-04-07T12:40:00.008+08:00

Last Sunday..DN had spent their quality time having dimsum breakfast at Dynasty, movie marathon-ing at the Empire & the Mall and had romantic dinner at Capers..Mr. D looking as cool as ever in his black shirt and new black watch and his partner, Ms. N wearing her blue top with black trousers...

She had been waiting for nearly a month to see her Mr. D..and finally, the promised date has come n the couple are united again..this tym to create another unforgetable date-d moments together..what Ms. N would like to say to her Mr. D: "...it was just perfect seeing u again and thanks for the whole day spent with me. I felt the same way too, just extraordinary being with you...simply that. The only feeling that can only be felt by me..."

* To be continued on the next post =)

Truly MMHA's...Neesa

It will be a Beautiful Sunday!

2009-04-01T12:53:00.005+08:00

It's been nearly a month since i last saw him..i guess this sunday is gonna be the beautiful day for both of us..kinda make me feel excited if lama dh nda bejumpa..can't really wait..4 more days and he will be my beautiful Sunday again..yes, yes..i'm smiling at heart when he set the date to be on the 5th, he asked me to plan the date this tym..n yea, i'm still working on it..ehe..makan dimana? hmm..lunch and dinner? movie dimana? ehe..few had been covered..juz need to be extra vigilant with the timing sja nanti..i want it to be 'DyNee' moments all over again lyk the previous date..the one that make me speechless and if i want to decsribe it, it's gonna be out of my vocabulary..ehe..

It's been 16 months and i had never fail to remember him every single day because he's a part of me and he's my punching bag..always be and always will..i promised myself 9 years ago that i will not fall in love again unless he's willing to catch me n i saw Dynie is the kind of person who is willing to catch me..LOL! =P

Truly falling for him...Neesa

Nervous ku..

2009-04-01T12:29:00.006+08:00

One word to describe my life right now would be..Nervous..yup2, i'm nervous..infact everyday..huhu..wondering why? People who are very close to me & my family would know why am i nervous everyday..ehe..i hope i won't be staying like these for long, paling lama pun i give it dlm one mnth lah kali..then, i hope everything will be back as normal..i'm in the stage of overcoming my stupid fear..as stated in the profile of mine, i do afraid or fear of this 1 stupid thing..huhu..i won't tell u what that is..let's just summarise it as 'a process of trying to be independent, in control and responsible to my life..'.

I always remind myself that it's stupid and not worth it to always think negative and always avoiding because in the end, i had to overcome my fear in order to enter to the next stage which is being an adult. Boring jua tu if as an adult but then u didn't got to do this one thing..nya my frens..i'm gonna miss one heck of fun..eheh..so, here i'm...trying to practise, and practise so that i got that particular skills one day! That's one of my new resolutions, to get that 'particular skill' so that i can do MMHA a favour and my family as well..Insya Allah, just keep on baca the doa and tawakal before i do the practising..i keep on ingat-ing myself that everytime =)

And..there's a new addition in the house garage..ehe..it arrived last friday morning..thanks to babah for still not giving up on me..i knew that i had troubled him so much in my life and kdg2 i wish that i can reverse all the hassle that i had caused him these last few years..i'm gonna buy him his desired ride once i got my degree or masters..Insya Allah =)

Truly hoping...Neesa

Moneh talks

2009-03-24T12:24:00.008+08:00

Seriously, I miss him so badly right now..i wish that he called just to say a few words..huhu..can’t really wait if he’s coming over to my house this coming Sunday..and if he did, I’m gonna be thrilled..ehe..but, yea, the plan is still blurry as of now..i’m totally fine with it if he nda belaku coz I know he can be busy as Menteri sometimes..eheh..kn bjumpa pun, hv to make appoinment with his so-called secretary first.. =P

Today, I’m virtually happy coz I saw the virtual money..haha..nada bah..surut2 tym ni especially to the graduating ITB students, for example, myself..if kedapatan duit..alangkah gumbira rasanya~*clap2*..ehe.. kamu pun jua kn..nda ja? Jaa~ ehe..the money problems that I had been currently having will be Insya Allah settled within a few weeks I hope! Huhu..my 1st wish list would be celebrating mama’s b’day yg supposedly gonna be tomorrow!!, treat the family for a b’day dinner perhaps and buy nice present for her..she’s been hinting me for weeks abt her b’day..haha..aku, biasalh..just buat muka senyum sja coz nada usin..whehe..

So, once my saving account had been top-up by the relevant authority (chewah..sapa tu a?) haha..then, i can spent some for her jua lh n Anie pun memajal minta her shares due to her excellent results tym O-level..huhu..so, I guess the money will be running out very the fast..ehe..due to membayar my pending promises..i’m not complaining, but happy indeed to share my hardly earned income with the rest of the family..lgpun my family is just a small one n I had no troubles sharing it with them, especially Naim.my gauk bro..he wanted a new action figure, mybe a Transformer (nda ku merati the way he explained to me..huhu) n an Ultraman baru..kn panuh ja bilik oleh brg2 mainan nya ani =)

My work kinda tiring lately coz bukan psal bnyk krja, tp psal nada krja..huhu..nya my colleague, skalinya bnyk krja, it's gonna be piling up brabisly but if langsung nada, we r so gonna be bored due to no work available..so, she was suggesting me to prepare saja wat need to be done beforehand so that once it's the crashing or rushing time, i won't be so stressful with the workload..so yea, i'm juz enjoying my moments of freedom for a while coz once it's all gone, i'm soo gonna begging for it..haha..atu labih!! ehe..

The hectic time are usually the month end till the 2nd week of every mnth, now aku stess free..juz stress psal anak2 murid kesayangan sja ni, ada tia nda mau tuition, ada tia penyakit M, ada tia pura2 damam..mcm2 sja ulah kanak2 masa ani ni..nda mcm kmi dulu2..eheh..cana kn kitani dulu? sama jua gauknya..ehe..aku murid baik kali a dulu2.. =P *perasan ku ah*

Truly saying that HE is my wonderful world..Neesa

Sweet one

2009-03-13T21:11:00.005+08:00

I'm unwell lately..n i had the worst day yesterday..all the paning, damam n cold at the same tym..huhu..n to make it worst, i didn't take any breakfast or lunch...after work then i ate n head trus to the tuition centre and taught till 9pm..huhu..OMG! kepisan rasanya..this is the first tym ever that i slept at 11pm..nda ku tahan lg..the pain is really, really out of words..after tuition, i ate cornflakes n medicine..then, off to bed~

I miss him now..he alwez took good care of me whenever i fell sick at Bndr, he bwa me to clinic n reminded me to take my medicine n to eat my meals accordingly..n deep down i glad that he did..it showed that he do care about my well being..n dat's wat really important to me..his thought towards me everytime, everywhere.. =)

N yea, f YOU reading this..whenevr i damam, i alwez remember that 1 precious n special thing that i did at the traffic light otw to my hstl..u still remember? I heart U luvve..

Truly missing u...Neesa

Dated!

2009-03-09T22:04:00.004+08:00

I dated with my dynie-ness last sunday...wow...everything are just getting better and better between us...i felt special when he's by my side...he treat me good...n the moments are beyond my vocabulary...

I want to create a word which decribes the moments that i experienced wif him yesterday...perkataan baru yg benar2 bisa menjelaskan apa yg Neesa rasakan...satu kata yg di atas 'Sayang', di atas kata 'Cinta', satu kata yg etinya lebih dari semua kata yg pernah ada...kerna...kata 'Cinta' langsung tidak cukup untuk mewakili apa yg benar2 Neesa rasakn kemarin...i'm blessed to own his kind heart...

Truly loving him...Neesa

25 reasons why guys like girls...

2009-03-09T21:17:00.003+08:00

They will always smell good even if it’s just shampoo
The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
How cute they look when they sleep
The ease in which they fit into our arms
The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
How cute they are when they eat
The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worthwhile
Because they are always warm even when it’s minus 30 outside
The way they look good no matter what they wear
The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
How cute they are when they argue
The way her hand always finds yours
The way they smile
The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
The way she says 'let’s not fight anymore' even though you know that an hour later...
The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
The way they kiss you when you say 'I love you'
Actually ... just the way they kiss you...
The way they fall into your arms when they cry
Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)!
The way they say 'I miss you'
The way you miss them
The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore...Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

p/s: Will any of u guys who r reading these justify them to me?? true kn ni? do comment in my chat box ayte.. =)

Truly curious...Neesa

MMHA

2009-03-06T22:26:00.005+08:00

I H E A R T U...

Truly his...Neesa

Updated version of me

2009-03-06T22:17:00.003+08:00

Good evening everyone!!! I knew that there’s a lot of ppl at this tym relaxing n enjoying their days since Monday is public holls in Brunei sempena Maulidur Rasul. Sapa yg nda krja esk means that they gonna hv 3 days off…siuk jua kamu a~ ehe…I’m gonna be working esk tp half day sja, till 11am n in the afternoon, I’m gonna be off to bndar since I have tuition class from 5 till 9pm…then, I’m gonna be off from work n class till Monday…yeay!!! Ehe~semangat banar kn cuti a…owh well, I deserve it…whehe..as I said, I will be tdur sja for those 2 days..haha..majal th banar! ari Selasa pagi, bruth u guys wake me up keh…nada bh~ as of today, the plan for Sunday is not cnfirm yet, but if it do, I’m gonna be at bndr on Sunday…outing wif my frens…Insya Allah, if nda jd, I’m gonna be at KB then, jd potato couch..ehe…I miss spending my time at home n juz do nothing, kalau boring pun, mybe I should off to gym sja nanti..ehe..i’ll wait n see how things goes.. =))

Owh yea…back to my past, I owe u guys my stories ryte? Ehe..so here goes..ehem2..

I started working part-time beginning Feb in Bndr as a tuition teacher…taught 3 subjects n used to commute from KB 3 days a week, but since I got a full tym job at Seria now, I reschedule the class n now I juz need to commute on Saturday n Monday only..at least, nda berapa tiring berabis…ehe..i never thought that I’m gonna be teaching honestly, I used to reject the course offered to me nearly 3 yrs ago from 1 local university in relevance to teaching, it’s not that I hate it..it’s juz that I dun tink that I have the ‘edge’ to teach the younger generations…it’s a big responsibility to bear…white flag! But now, like ppl said, tak kenal, maka tak cinta ryte? I tink I began to like the job n the responsibility that comes with it…payah at first but I gradually taking it slow n steady~~ chewah..ehe..

Middle Feb, I were asked to go for 2 interviews within a day..one in the morning, n the other one was in the afternoon..fiuh..n I’m so happy that I ace the interviews n I got both jobs within one day!!! Ehe..so overwhelmed with the offers, the first person I told is MMHA…I msg him abt the gud news, then bruth I told my dad…he didn’t know abt it till I reached home, he nvr expected that I got the answer on the same day…so, yea…rezeki, evn the post offered is nothing to do or evn close wif my line of study..ehe..i’m just being thankful to Allah for being so nice to me..ehe..

Abt the other job, I was offered to become a tuition teacher at my home town, so I discussed wif the boss regarding my schedule of teaching in Bndr n working full time…he agreed for me to teach after work during weekdays only for 2 subjects…so, everything was settled n off I go becoming a teacher in KB the next week nya…ehe…I started working full time in Seria right after National Day ari2, I found the environment in my dept is very quiet n the people are very helpful in teaching me a lot of stuff…so, as of now..i’m in the process of adjusting myself wif my assigned tasks n responsibilities towards my own dept…ehe

Wondering where I work now? Ehe…I’m now the employee of MGCSB , or better known as MASHHOR, as a Technical Assistant (TA) of QHSSE (Quality, Health, Security, Safety Environment)dept. Totally, out of my qualification as a Business and Finance (Management) student…but I took the job due to my curiosity n opportunity to learn n explore more on the unknown areas~chewah…at least, I’m learning something different kan…infact, it’s actually related to my unit dulu, under HRM..i tink I like the dept oredi…ehe..evn the post technical asst sound kewl to me oredi…eheh… =P

I sent my HECAS already last week…I really, really, really hope that I could get my 1^st choice of programme…honestly, it’s my 2^nd ambition tu after mau jd doctor tym dulu2..haha…but since I didn’t take History tym O level, they said I can’t ambil that programme...in the end, I opt for Business n Finance sja since I like numbers n everything related to Commerce as well…insya Allah if ada rezeki, I won’t mind to wait for another 4 yrs so that I could get my degree…my parents pun totally agreed wif it n had actually convinced me to take up dat particular programme over Business-related programme…owh well, now I juz had to wait n see for the outcomes which I understood will be out late May. If nada rezeki for my 1^st choice, I will be continuing the Business-related programme..ehe..no harm , at least I’m trying my luck…mana lah tau the lady luck is on my side..d name of my 1^st choice? Aceler~ f aku dpt, ada ku gto tu nanti k..whehe~ doakan sja…

So yea…now the life is busy wif juggling 3 jobs at one time…i did all of these coz I had plans of doing something really, really big this year!!! Curious ppl?? I did!!! Ehehe..can’t wait for those to come true, hope jadi th nanti my plans ni…Insya Allah…more abt me on the next post ayte…till now, I love kamu =P

Truly MMHA's...Neesa

What KhairunnisaNapre Means =)

2009-03-06T22:08:00.004+08:00

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

p/s: Owh well…nda ku tau whether the whole meaning are true or not…yg ku tau, my name dlm bahasa arab, meaningnya 'sebaik-baik wanita'…atu cnfirm plng lurus tu...kn, kn, kn? *buat muka innocent skajap* ehe =)

Truly...Neesa

Neesa November Project!

2009-03-04T22:29:00.005+08:00

I' m working on a big project ryte now...not office-related or any assignments n stuff...it's my very own project that had been initiated by my very self...it's kinda testing my own skills n creativity...it had pushed me to my maximum limits...ehe... can't wait till the day that it will be finished coz i reallyy nda sabar kan show it to the VIP in my life! *winks* It's very important for me as well since the project had a sentimental value towards me n it had meant so much in my life...

Truly feeling inspired by him...Neesa

Snap!

2009-03-04T12:46:00.007+08:00

I'm currently in the office right now...supposedly lunch break tym ani but i dun go out for lunch here...malas guwe, lgpun juz one-hour sja, by the time smpai rumah, makan...nda lama lapas tu..rushing kn k office lg, so yea, beside alum lg luan attach wif the ppl arnd here...my dept is not exactly at the main office, so...i just can mingle wif my dept sja lh...they are nice n frenly ppl though...ehe..but rh the main office, there's a lot of ppl my age...nganya nda kn aku kn spent most of my time there rather than my actual working place...ryte? ehe...ok, luahan rasa skjap td a..juz wanna share a bit of myself wif all the bloggers today..fiuh~ dat's a relief! ehe...

I owe u guys a lot of stories!!! I miss blogging brabis-ly!!! huhu...hope that i could just find the time mlm ani to juz blog, blog n blog...btw, lately my life hectic brabis! It's like only few hrs sja i managed to talk, sit n eat wif my family...then, i'm off to bed..kengalihan..huhu...the next day, awl bngn n off to work...after work, continue wif the tuition class, plng ahir pun up till 9pm...kdg2 finish earlier plng, depends on the classes itself...u guys can juz see that i dun hv time juz to relax, online or even blogging! The only time where i'm free from work n class is on SUNDAY n public holls! ehe..yeayy~i really can't wait for the upcoming sunday n monday...at least ada 2 days off...i tink i want to sleep the whole 2 days sja eyh..haha...kepisan! =P

K guys...more updates on me soon yea..juz stay tune..owh yea, Dynie n I went out last sunday after 1 month nda bjumpa..huhu..both of us pun kinda bz jua...to be exact, i spent 12 sweet hours wif him last weekend...ehe..i'm missing him already from here...how i wish Bandar n KB is juz few minutes away...whehe...

Truly content...Neesa

Shhh...99 secrets gurls have to know about guys!!!

2009-02-08T15:57:00.002+08:00

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18. Giving a guy heard a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you are asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying "Please come and listen to me"
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they're wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears
83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

Truly loves being a gurl...Neesa

A feeling. Only felt.

2009-02-08T15:36:00.007+08:00

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

- When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.

- When she says she's ok, don’t believe it, talk with her…because 10 yrs later, she'll remember you.

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her.

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it’s stupid.

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is "Who's ass am I kicking babe?"

Truly MMHA's...Neesa

Coz you'll always be my Baby

2009-01-19T23:37:00.009+08:00

Plz beware blog hoppers: This is my longest posting ever! Muahaha *evil laugh* =P

Last weekend, I stayed at Bndr for his belated b’day. It’s been a month since I last saw Dynie. Only God knows know what had been missing in me while he’s not arnd, he’s my source of sadness, happiness, laughter and strength. No one ever sees the real me beside him, n dat make him so special coz he understand me well, he could read my minds sometimes n he calms me down when I got problem on my own. The present n my future amazing life…trima kasih Tuhan! Aku bahagia dgn adanya dia sekarang…*winks*

Last Saturday date…waa…I’m overwhelmed! We had lunch, movie, jln2 n dinner…semuanya berdua. Details? I had a mixed feelings actually on dat day…I promised myself way earlier not to tell him abt my upcoming plans within this year…firstly, coz it’s not confirmed yet n secondly, I’m juz not ready to tell him yet, bukan psal tkut ia sedih or anything…it’s because aku yg nda mau rasa sedih instead wen I told him…but, somehow, I juz cudn’t do it…coz I honestly cudn’t keep any secret from him…I can’t help it n the way he ask me qns…kalah wartawan…huhu..in the end, bocor rahsia…huhu.

Due to that, tym otw he sent me home…sikit lg kn termenangis…huhu…nda tahan lg…at dat tym, I keep on imagining silently dat bru brpa ari we dun meet n within the same country lg, kdg2 I miss him soo dreadfully bad! What’s gonna happen when I was miles away for a few years? Due to that…me diam ja…such a horrifying thought…wargh…n the body temperature juz keep on rising…huhu…I knew that at dat tym, he tried to make me feel better by starting a conversation, so dat I won’t get carried away…n he succeded…aku nda jd kn nangis..huhu…sensitive jua eyh…aku ni jrg kn menangis, tup…tup…bab ani kalah tia ku...cair ~

1st stop: We had lunch at Ideal, Bndr. This is when I break the news…huhu. He looked different…Dynie had shaved n cut his hair! Saye jd tak keruan =p Still remember when he first shaved tym d DST, smpai nda tau apa kn ckp wif him, ter speechless…huhu. I juz managed to say dat he look different…n he juz laughed. “I know wat u meant…it’s becoz I shaved kn?” dat was his reply at dat tym… =)

2nd stop: We headed to Mall. The movie is gonna start at 4.25pm so to kill the tym, we juz jln2 sja n I met few familiar faces sana. ‘Changeling’ was such an inspiring movie! I wish I had only half of Angelina Jolie’s character spirits, hope n patience. It wud be more than enough for me to keep on believing on wat I thought was the right n the best for me in life. The movie was based on a true story that had taken place in the year 1920’s. Go ahead n watch the movie n I’m sure u guys will be inspired as well. As for my personal experience, the DN moments was the best ever…I’m so gonna miss it someday…huhu.

3rd stop: My favourite part jua ni…whehe. Actually I got plan for dinner wif him at this one quiet place in Bndr. Rupanya he ada plan th jua…ehe…wow…sweet bnr. So, we went to his chosen place rather than mine. Next tym, I will bring u to my chosen place ayte dear…ehe. He brought me to Charcoal. We juz talk n as usual, he made me laugh…spend a few hrs there…lama dh nda story sharing, he’s fun to be wif n I never get bored of his thoughts n delightful insights abt life…Thanks for all the treat on Saturday my naughty dear…lain kali lagi a =p.

After dat, he sent me to my place of stay dat nyt. Nine unforgetable hrs wif him…seems skajap ja wen he’s beside me…huhu. I gave him his presents after lunch dat day, glad that he like it n he gave me something jua before balik…ehe…thanxie Love! Nda sangka I got something jua pnya…ehe…how can I live without u later? Hope dat I can survived n at the same tym, achieved my goals so dat I will be living my dream life with someone who is very special to me dat’s worth sharing everything that i owned. N I had my Mr. Right already for that particular spot...miss u very the much sai. *winks*

p/s: Siuk jua a f sekali-sekala ter bump onto u secara surprise =) I like my Sunday as well coz I never had imagine seeing u in the middle of my journey back home yesterday. Juz wanna say dat u look great dear…I juz love surprises…who don’t?

Truly cinta banget sama kamu...Neesa

Outing to Miri

2009-01-19T23:25:00.008+08:00

Last Friday, my parents n me went to Miri for a shopping trip. I got 1yr supply of coloured contact lens…ehe…saye suka, apalagi kalau d sponsor oleh ayahanda *winks* The rest of the day, me, mama n babah shopping utk babah’s pants n t-shirts. Semuanya telah di recommend oleh anakanda tercute…ehe…itu aku! *majal bnr* =p Before balik, we headed for Secret Recipe…nda sampat rasa tym d KL last year, so try yg d Miri ja lh…not bad ppl…

Truly enjoying myself...Neesa

Happy Birthday My Superman

2009-01-15T23:39:00.009+08:00

It's been a while me nda update MBS...biasa, penyakit M menyerang daku...huhu...but, i knew that this particular post is definitely gonna worth it!!! So, here goes...

Today is soo special…psal apa nh…it’s the 15th of January…I would like to wish Happy 23rd Birthday to my Superman yang suka R35, wrna hijau =P and yang Neesa sayangi macam slalu yang mungkin masa ani menunggu-nunggu hadiah from me… whehe. Dalam kesempatan ani jua, Neesa ingin minta belanja mkn on Saturday, me mau my favourite, Carbonara, your treat or no present for u k love =p

This is my first time greeting you via ‘My Breathing Space’ pasal Neesa inda sampat buy u a birthday card, plus, I think it’s better for me to wish it here, firstly, it saves my money =P and secondly, I knew ur CIS gengs will be reading this particular post…so, inda secara langsung, dey all pun tau yang awak hari jadi and kemungkinan besar, dorang pun behajat tarus mambagi hadiah. siapa mambari? inda ja? Jaaa~.huhu

So Mr. WonderSeven que…

Jangan lupa Saturday date ah. Here's a hint, I’m craving for an Italian Cuisine… *mun nda paham or still confuse, plz refer to the 2nd paragraph… =P* Awak yg birthday, Neesa plng kan demand? Huhu…nada wh, juz joking dear, it's your call!! I’m teasing u…jgn smpai ke jiwa k…kalau marah, nda tia cute lg dear =P

Last and certainly not the least, Neesa doakan you always in a good health, sentiasa dilindungi oleh Allah, may u earn all the wonders in the world and become successful in your life ayte. Akhir kalam…chewah~ You probably had known that Green rawk my world kn…ada lg satu dear…You rawk my world too you know....ehe…can’t wait to see u soon Superman~

Truly ur Wonderwoman...Neesa (perasan! =p)

Ujian.

2009-01-08T10:57:00.011+08:00

" Kerna buat aku hubungan kita special sangat...dan aku mau jaga itu..." - Neesa N.

So how much do I love you?
I love you more than you do love
Your favourite drink, ABC...

That's a good amount of love
But doesn't describe it quite
Let's say I love you even more
Than you love your outing nights with your two best frens...

Or the best comparison
Might be that its the same
Amount of love that you have for
Your favorite video games, for instance, Ikariam and Guitar Hero!

Oh these silly metaphors
Can't honestly express
That I love you, MMHA, I always will
And I'll never love you less...

and for the record, as of now...i'm missing him dreadfully bad...get well soon yea n take care of urself...

Truly MMHA's...Neesa

My life had been lately...

2009-01-08T01:22:00.007+08:00

It's been a while since i update my blog...been out of hands lately...last week there was a bbq for the family...nyum2...ehe...no pictures for that, so bz helping them out wif the foods n preparations, we did it at the garage n when dad's home after work arnd 10.30pm, the bbq began. F nda salah, it was on the 2nd of Jan.

Then, the next day and on Monday, i went to ITB to settle all the unfinished biz...ehe...gladly all had been settled...ryte now, i'm juz waiting for my leaving cert sja which will be done for the next 2wks...owh, can't wait for the upcoming career day...for those kwn2 seperjuanganku yg msa ani sedang menanam anggur di rumah di alu-alukn lh dtg coz it will be beneficial for u guys, including me lh tu...huhu...penanam anggur yg ber HND...mahal eyh...ehe...n starting today i had begin my new routine...new schedule...new way of living my life...hope Neesa dpt kuatkn ati n proceed the activity smpai succeed in achieving my goals or targets before my graduation this year...5 more months to go...chayo!!! ehe...

ITB CAREER DAY – January 22^nd 2009

1. BSP

2. TELBRU

3. Jobs R Us

4. Biro Mencegah Rasuah

5. Jabatan Bomba dan Penyelamat

6. Pasukan Polis Diraja Brunei

7. Royal Brunei Technical Services (RBTS)

8. Schlumberger WTA (M) Sdn Bhd

9. Baiduri Bank

10. BAGS Networks Sdn Bhd

11. HRD Services

12. Bahagian Biasiswa Kementerian Pendidikan

13. Brunei Gas Carriers Sdn. Bhd. (BGC)

14. BLNG

15. BSM

16. British Council

17. Empire Hotel and Country Club

18. Tabung Amanah Pekeja (TAP)

19. Standard Chartered Bank

20. SKSWoods

21. Jabatan Buruh

22. DST

23. BIBD

24. HAHD Engineering & Associates

25. MASHHOR Group of Companies

26. Angkatan Bersenjata Diraja Brunei (ABDB)

27. AIA

28. Baker Hughes (M) Sdn. Bhd.

29. KCA DEUTAG Drilling Company

30. Smith Bits Services

31. Joffren Omar Co Sdn Bhd.

32. Geoservices South East Asia

33. Weatherford Brunei Sdn. Bhd.

34. PY Oiltools Sdn. Bhd.

35. PTAS-ITS Sdn. Bhd.

36. Riyan Cameron (B) Sdn Bhd.

37. Amrtur Corp. Sdn Bhd.

This event is open to graduates, job seekers and members of public. They are also advised to bring along all relevant documents, passport size photo, CV, photocopy of your IC and also please dress accordingly as walk-in interviews will be held during the Career Dialogue and Exhibition 2009.

Truly anticipating for my next challenge...Neesa

Plz Take Note...

2009-01-08T01:02:00.004+08:00

I received this msg from Ms.Wida last tuesday in the afternoon...

" Salam. Mau ikut ke KK? $180 utk 5D4N. Jalan darat. 19-23 Jan. Msuk transport. tmpt tinggal, fee n lunch 2x. F mau join, dtg ja 19th d ITB b4 6am. Pay tarus. Bnyk seats. "

I believed the offer only opens to Business & Management and Computing & Information System Department saja...for more details, do contact Ms.Wida of CIS Dept ayte... =)

Truly still in holiday mode...Neesa

Vivi's Surprise B'day Visit

2009-01-03T02:51:00.006+08:00

1st Jan : Aku kna kidnap arnd 6pm d rumh...by the hstelites...the master plan was to buat surprise visit to Vivi's d Seria for her belated birthday which was on the 31s Dec...i miss her...lama dh nda tjumpa...she will cntinue her studies in ECE at ITB this January. Wish her lots of success...love u sis! Ramai jua lh rombongan meminang Vivi malam atu...opps...i meant surprise b'day visit...arnd 14 peeps...ehe.

Her dad pun sporting jua...thanks for the cooperation uncle...ehe...n the plan did work! Her face msa kmi wait for her at the living room wif the cake was precious...ehe...we all talk, eat junkies sma2 n catch up old good stories...then, smbg lepak lg d bawah rumahnya till 12 midnight...nda trasa bnar...ehe...it was nice juz to hang out n laugh sma2...a stress free theraphy for me...n i finally reached home arnd 12.30am...ehe...nice! 2 nights in a row balik ahir...lain kali lagi a...jd naughty gurl skali skala...huhu...aku kn naughty? tak sanggup gue! haha...

Truly enjoying myself...Neesa

Greetings & Resolutions

2009-01-03T01:59:00.004+08:00

First of all, Neesa would like to wish all muslims Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah 1430 and hope dat it will be a blessful year for all of us indeed...Amin.

Secondly, Happy New Year 2009. Wish dat it will be a new beginning for my more colourful journeys to come...Insya Allah.

New resolutions...new wishes & hopes...new plans...an advanced & improved version of Neesa N as well. But my heart will remain stagnant for this one special person. I will grow every second with my heart that beats one name and it's MMHA. I heart you...

My resolutions? Hmm...last year resolutions weren't so bad...i managed to make all of them came true within 1 year period...ehe...a pat on the back for me...Syukur Alhamdulillah...it required a lot of hard work n i did make several sacrifices as well, not to mention the 'opportunity costs' it had cost me...but it's all over now...yg penting the whole process had me the better person, i didn't juz see n judge the outcomes...yg penting not the goals itself, it's the journeys, the bitterness, susah payahnya to reach dat particular goals...It's the journeys dat counts, not the destinations.

For instance, i didn't care u r rich or not...i juz want to know how u become one...whether it's juz hereditary wealth from parents or u work and earn for it...it does make a difference, ryte? Anoher example would be like it doesn't matter whether u scores with flying colour if u only got them not from ur own effort but juz blindly copy from someone, ryte? So...i think deep before i judge someone...i rather see for myself than hearing from others...dat's how my mind work...

I'm not going into details about my azam for 2009...it's rather personal n i would like to keep it myself n for my own eyes sja coz nanti f dibagitahu, nda chia my wishes tu come true...mcm banar...whehe...juz kidding...the lists are quite a lot than last year's n it's more of my career progression n my personal life in order to make it nicely balance. I look forward to make both my worlds work n complement them wif one another. Wish me luck peeps!

Truly new...Neesa

My New Year's Eve

2009-01-03T01:03:00.006+08:00

My new year eve....hmm...one word to describe it : HAPPENING!!! Mula2 nda tau where n how to celebrate, ada few invitations to attend n lastly i chose to be wif the hostelites. I juz had the decision made in the afternoon. Last minute plan...ehe.

My siblings off to my cuzzy's to celebrate my cuz n nephew's b'day & new year celebration, my dad off to work at Tutong n i was wif the hostelites. Went off arnd 7plus from home n cruising skajap at KB town, sunyi bnr...ehe..then, me n CTO off to Ezad's crib. He hosted a new year celebration gathering wif us & close families n frens...ada lucky draws, shuffle n karaoke competition, bbq-ing n lots of other stuffs. Thanks Ezad for having me there n CTO for the ride. It was F-U-N!

My lucky draw! =)

Saye =p

Karaoke-ing...
Mizan, Amied, Ezad, Yus, Ray & CTO

the ladies...

Nasib ada u guys...f not, i wud be miserable! Coz i'm all alone dat nyte beside my family that is...thanks bros n sis...emo usulnya...andang pun! I'm lately...nda tau knapa...sensitif jiwaku...huhu...mybe psal my monthly fren was around kali...anth a...yg pentingnya aku happy psal ada kmu2 semua...

Malam atu yg ada: Azrin, Ezad, Mamat, Mizan, Yus, Ray, Kasah, Dee Jay, Rat, CTO & Amied. If my roomate, Khaty ada, lg siuk tu coz ia jaguh menyanyi...kwnku yg love to sing...yg sehati sejiwa...haha. When the clock strikes at midnight, ada fireworks nearby...lovely, juz like wat i had in mind n we all dance. Whehe...antam sja, yg penting, happy! Then, smbg lagi ceta2, lepak-ing, karaoke-ing till 2.15am...can't believe smpai pagi kmi becerita tu...kira kn smbg lg d simpur...tp pikir2, we juz end the night sja...ehe.

At home, my dad is still not around. I found out the next day he went back home tym subuh. My siblings balik arnd 1am n me arnd 2.30am. Owh well...a gud start for year 2009. One wild party...checked! One list had came true...haha...kidding! How i wish u were there wif me...i can only imagine awk ada kat sana malam tu...

Truly will be missing them...Neesa

1st post in 2009

2009-01-02T04:30:00.005+08:00

I want my 1st posting this year to be worth it, somewat special n as sweet as a lollipop...more updates from me soon yea...so, stay tune bloggers...i had been bz lately n malar bejaur sja with my monkeys...2 nights in a row...nasib 'big boss' di rumah nda say apa2...huhu...at least the outings make me less bored n hindered me from doing anything stupid that cud ruin my entire life...ehe...serious n emo bunyinya...baru jua how many hours after new year...ayte2...till later peeps...sayang kamu!

So, let's see...hmm...its been more than 2 wks now...no calls...no msgs...just MSNing...hardly enough but i can live wif it...'my life without seeing him everyday' kinda fails me sometimes, but it's juz a phase in life that i should try to adapt with from now on...it's a test n i should not fail! Aku mau dpt distinction *majal* Msti tahan kn ati n jgn luan di pikirkan sangat...stay focus n be happy...dat's wat i had been telling my heart lately...BUT...still, deep down...i miss him so dearly...thinking of him every seconds...falling in love make me uneasy sometimes...benci saye...tapi i still favour having one...like i said earlier, it's as sweet as a lollipop...Dynie is my lollipop now! ^_^

Truly exhausted...Neesa

L.O.V.E.

2008-12-23T03:24:00.008+08:00

It's exactly 3.26am now....i juz had my dinner td or shud i called it my supper or my so-called early breakfast...haha..yea, i got caught up wif the series smpai aku nda sadar kn mkn...but till td, aku rasa lapar berabis so i had decided to cook my own meal...but my meal is the so called American Breakfast th plng...i had made myself scrambled egg td wif sausages n my LIFE chilli sos...n the results, i'm full...whehe...f ada pan cakes wif honey, my so-called breakfast juz now will be complete, huh? ehe...next tym then...Insya Allah...

Guess wat, i was busy browsing the internet td ptg n finally, i got the song that i had been searching for months now! Kinda hard to find since i only know the singer sja, not the name of the song...n i barely ingat the lyrics..it's the very old song plng but, yea...classics rawk so pham2 lh kn...aku yg jenis memajal ani...in the end, i got it....so, here's the lyrics:

Dengan bahasa kalimah yang sama

Puji dan memuja

Dilindung dan dibuka

Rahsia kan tetap rahsia…

Indah bukan rupa

Harum bukan bunga

Manis bukan gula

Panas bukannya bara

Cinta kan tetap cinta…

Sejak aku kenali

Cintamu yang suci

Aku telah berjanji tak berpaling lagi

Akan aku genggam api

Hingga jadi besi

Dan nyata sebati…

Gelap bukan malam

Terang bukan siang

Satu tak terbilang

Hanyut tak terenang

Waktu tak terasa

Rindu tak terkata

Asyiknya cinta…

Repeat **

Dan hanya kepadamu

Ku serah jiwa ragaku

Walau berjuta seteru

Tak ku ragu…

Repeat * & ** (2x)

The above song was from the 90's Malaysian Band group, Damasutra...the title is Damai...finally! U know wat's so great about the song...the lyrics! Yup, no doubt abt that...the one i highlighted in red are wat i LOVE most...i think they best defines wat LOVE is all abt...it makes u crazy n out of ur mind...at least I'm...

Yg pentingnya, when i saw him, my heart goes dup dap...dup dap....dup dap...n i dun think it will ever fades away, evnthough it's been a year plus we had been together...i want my heart goes dup dap..dup dap...dup dap...forever for him, no one else. I still can't see right thru' his eyes without blinking even...i tink i got to work on that as well...he always brag that he won all the times...n u know y dear? coz i let u..dat's y..kalau nda, me yg slalu manang d battle tu...ehe..nada bh...juz kidding...seriously, ryte now...i keep on thinking of ur eyes...n ur teasing to me...n yea, u know wat i miss most abt u...ur s***t. *winks*

Truly his...Neesa