Her love letters (2)

Sleepy, vaguely overwrought, listening to a love song, thinking of you. Feeling like I’m in a tunnel, and you’re the light at the end of it, the blueness of the sky, infinity and more. I think I could disappear in you, I’m indeed afraid to disappear in you.

Everything’s so simple, really. It’s been ages since I believed in anything. I’ve been a pragmatic and intellectual lover and I’m just ready to fall again. So, I’m looking for you, I see you in every faces that passes by already. When you stop and smile, I’ll be ready and waiting, and I’ll fall off the side of the earth again. My friends will be exasperated, they always are, they had such high hopes that I would talk about whatever, instead of running off to somewhere completely gazing into your eyes or shivering down my spine, holding hands and everything else.

When I find you, and maybe you’re already here, in the next room looking for your notebook as I write, I will give you this letter, and you won’t laugh, you’ll understand, and we’ll marvel at how psychic I am.

So, I am pathetic, too bad, this is how I’ve always been, my whole personality is formed in relation to love, in wait for you.

Can’t wait to meet u Mr. Right!

I haven't saw him since our last dinner on the May, 30th...will be seeing him again the first week week of next month, Insya Allah. Yea, it's been a while, but i'm sure it's gonna be all worth it when we met. Hanya Tuhan sja tahu how much i've been missing you and I still am...obviously i can't really wait for our next rendezvous soon! =)


Truly had found her Mr. Right...Neesa

Her love letters

I like to write..a lot! When the ideas are pouring in and i got nothing else to do, writing is the first on my to-do list..i do a bit of packing juz now and found these love letters inside my boxes..i don't remember when i wrote them, but mybe during my Form 3 or 4 kali..ehe..at dat tym, i wanna get them framed and gave them as one of my Hantaran thingy for my future-to-be husband..zaman kanak2 dulu, kuat angan2 ta jua..huhu..i wonder whether it will come true some day, to get them laminated and gave them to him with my secondary handwritings yg ala2 classic gitu..haha..i'm privileged to show them all to u..as you are special to me as well =)

You…

I haven’t met you yet. But I listen to this song, and the way it makes me feel, it makes me know you. And hope that I will meet you one day. Because it is the feeling of being in love and I know it’s ridiculous to feel this from listening to a song, but…

You…

Who are you, where are you, and why is it taking so long? I don’t even see you on the horizon, but one day, there you will be, no questions need answering and forever will loom in front of us, something, days, weeks, years, all with this feeling at the bottom of it, chills going through my stomach, and the biggest, stupidest smile on my face reflected back to me on your face.

Because, I am still a 15 year old girl wanting to spend forever with that boy, the one who says impossible things that I believe. I’ve got the grin on my face just thinking about it. I won’t do anything to charm you, and when I charm you any way you won’t print it out in a way that make me feel self-conscious, makes me start performing for you. And I won’t think you’re annoying or clingy because you love me, and sent me love letters, I won’t have to suppress the urge to laugh at you, because…

Because I’ll believe in you.

And it can’t be true, and I’ll never meet you and this letter is impossibly mortifying. Still…I can’t wait and I miss you, and I love you.

Please forgive my imperfect expression of all this.

The second one will be coming in a short while yea =D


Truly MMHA's...Neesa

Randomly Post-ed

This particular post will be just a quick one. I got this from a fren of mine. Something that worth a thought..

"Memories play a confusing role. They make u laugh when u remember the time u cried together but make u cry when u remember the time u laughed together..."

I juz realized that MBS (My Breathing Space) had turn 1 year old last 14th May..ehe.. i knew it's gonna be in May, but not sure the date bila..i juz checked just now n my first ever posting is on the 14th itself..i still like this layout..very greenish..just like my soul..hijau senantiasa..eseh~liat lah dulu if i wanna change it or not, but, if i did..it's gonna be in green as well..coz hijau itulah duniaku ^_^

- HAPPY 1st MBS -

I don't know whether YOU will read my blog or not, but if YOU do..i'd like to sink into you. and go to sleep. for a good, long while. It's just that when you are far, far away from me, without realising it, it silently hurts me.. xoxo


Truly missing YOU...Neesa