Simply exceptional ordinary..

Have I found you?? And if I ever to lost you..ever..i don’t think I can ever be in love again..to be madly in love to be exact..cause u own my heart..u hold the key..u r my handler..n I love u..more than u can imagine..cause u make me shine..cause u make me felt special..cause when u are around, u made my earth moves..cause u make me nervous...cause u lead me when I’m lost..cause u always there when I need u the most..cause u just being urself..there’s no lies, no pretending..u r no plastic..u made me just being me..just being myself..n I got to be me..i think I had found u..found my king..found my man..found a guy who still can make me laugh when I 'm sad..who dry my tears when I cried..who hold my hands when i'm nervous..who keep it warm when it felt cold..who believe in me..who claims me as his exceptional ordinary..I heart u..

Truly yours...Neesa

The one that keep pushing me as days went by..

When you are sad - I will dry your tears...
When you are scared - I will comfort your fears...
When you are worried - i will give you hope...
When you are confused - I will help you cope...
And when you are lost and can't see the light...
I shall be your beacon - shining ever so bright...
This is my oath - i pledge till the end...
Why you may ask? - because you're my tired.


Truly MMHA's...Neesa

Her love letters (2)

Sleepy, vaguely overwrought, listening to a love song, thinking of you. Feeling like I’m in a tunnel, and you’re the light at the end of it, the blueness of the sky, infinity and more. I think I could disappear in you, I’m indeed afraid to disappear in you.

Everything’s so simple, really. It’s been ages since I believed in anything. I’ve been a pragmatic and intellectual lover and I’m just ready to fall again. So, I’m looking for you, I see you in every faces that passes by already. When you stop and smile, I’ll be ready and waiting, and I’ll fall off the side of the earth again. My friends will be exasperated, they always are, they had such high hopes that I would talk about whatever, instead of running off to somewhere completely gazing into your eyes or shivering down my spine, holding hands and everything else.

When I find you, and maybe you’re already here, in the next room looking for your notebook as I write, I will give you this letter, and you won’t laugh, you’ll understand, and we’ll marvel at how psychic I am.

So, I am pathetic, too bad, this is how I’ve always been, my whole personality is formed in relation to love, in wait for you.

Can’t wait to meet u Mr. Right!

I haven't saw him since our last dinner on the May, 30th...will be seeing him again the first week week of next month, Insya Allah. Yea, it's been a while, but i'm sure it's gonna be all worth it when we met. Hanya Tuhan sja tahu how much i've been missing you and I still am...obviously i can't really wait for our next rendezvous soon! =)


Truly had found her Mr. Right...Neesa

Her love letters

I like to write..a lot! When the ideas are pouring in and i got nothing else to do, writing is the first on my to-do list..i do a bit of packing juz now and found these love letters inside my boxes..i don't remember when i wrote them, but mybe during my Form 3 or 4 kali..ehe..at dat tym, i wanna get them framed and gave them as one of my Hantaran thingy for my future-to-be husband..zaman kanak2 dulu, kuat angan2 ta jua..huhu..i wonder whether it will come true some day, to get them laminated and gave them to him with my secondary handwritings yg ala2 classic gitu..haha..i'm privileged to show them all to u..as you are special to me as well =)

You…

I haven’t met you yet. But I listen to this song, and the way it makes me feel, it makes me know you. And hope that I will meet you one day. Because it is the feeling of being in love and I know it’s ridiculous to feel this from listening to a song, but…

You…

Who are you, where are you, and why is it taking so long? I don’t even see you on the horizon, but one day, there you will be, no questions need answering and forever will loom in front of us, something, days, weeks, years, all with this feeling at the bottom of it, chills going through my stomach, and the biggest, stupidest smile on my face reflected back to me on your face.

Because, I am still a 15 year old girl wanting to spend forever with that boy, the one who says impossible things that I believe. I’ve got the grin on my face just thinking about it. I won’t do anything to charm you, and when I charm you any way you won’t print it out in a way that make me feel self-conscious, makes me start performing for you. And I won’t think you’re annoying or clingy because you love me, and sent me love letters, I won’t have to suppress the urge to laugh at you, because…

Because I’ll believe in you.

And it can’t be true, and I’ll never meet you and this letter is impossibly mortifying. Still…I can’t wait and I miss you, and I love you.

Please forgive my imperfect expression of all this.

The second one will be coming in a short while yea =D


Truly MMHA's...Neesa

Randomly Post-ed

This particular post will be just a quick one. I got this from a fren of mine. Something that worth a thought..

"Memories play a confusing role. They make u laugh when u remember the time u cried together but make u cry when u remember the time u laughed together..."

I juz realized that MBS (My Breathing Space) had turn 1 year old last 14th May..ehe.. i knew it's gonna be in May, but not sure the date bila..i juz checked just now n my first ever posting is on the 14th itself..i still like this layout..very greenish..just like my soul..hijau senantiasa..eseh~liat lah dulu if i wanna change it or not, but, if i did..it's gonna be in green as well..coz hijau itulah duniaku ^_^

- HAPPY 1st MBS -

I don't know whether YOU will read my blog or not, but if YOU do..i'd like to sink into you. and go to sleep. for a good, long while. It's just that when you are far, far away from me, without realising it, it silently hurts me.. xoxo


Truly missing YOU...Neesa

8 days in counting

Feeling different lately..sometimes felt ada butterfiles in my tummy altho nda tau apa sja yg kn d ingaukn..whehe..i don't really know how to define this emotion of mine..is it a good or a bad thing? or is it a bad good thing? haha..adakn? i told u i don't know how to categorise the emotion..the important thing is that only i knew about it and intend not to share it wif others coz i find it quite embarrasing..huhu..apakn? eheh..owh well, blame it on the mood swings ppl! =D

Yg penting saya happy..the rest lantaklah..i have to be selfish sometimes, nda ja? And now, i got to be one *yeay* The graduation moments are still on my head..haha..majal! but hey, it's one of those days that u won't ever want to forget for the rest of ur life, ryte? Unless u got amnesia..huhu..*knock wood* Alhamdulillah, all went well n i'm greatful for that =D

At this very moment, i'm kinda nervous waiting for the HECAS result..huhu..i dun evn know wat to expect, have no choice but to juz wait n see the outcomes nanti on the May, 31st..if ada rezeki, there will be certain issues that i need to settle wif certain ppl n i'm gonna be so busy wif the procedures and stuff..eheh..bz lagi..owh well, u got to do wat u got to do..ryte? That's life..n dat make it evn more beautiful =)

I sounded so down n stressful in my previous post about my work life..but now, i'm fine..try to keep up n pick things here n there and lastly, try to stay positive at all times! ehe..so far, i'm able to enjoy watver tasks dat i'm doing currently..the last tym tu mybe i felt so pressured with the due dates n my personal life..but now, i'm back on track n felt as good as new..whehe..beside kan saya ni good mood, kalau saya good mood, saya akan berasa happy dan bila saya berasa happy, saya akan senyum, dan bila saya senyum, saya akan merasa tidak stress, dan bila saya tidak merasa stress, saya akan berasa damai dan hati saya pun terasa lapang..haha *panats* i think i better stop now..whehe..wanna get a manicure later eyh..sapa mau join? =D

Truly in a very good mood...Neesa

We all done it!

Hye readers..a quick shout out ~ I'M OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!!!

This few weeks had been crazy n I’m loving it..ehe..I felt happy to the max..i don’t even know how to start telling u guys what are they all about =)

After over a month, I finally met him last week. It had been super duper great..whehe..spending time having lunch on the first day of rehearsal n movie-ing at the Empire on the full dress rehearsal day was fun! Lama dh nda out for lunch wif him..it’s been like forever since we spend our quality tym together..n I must say the time spent last week together had been a quality one indeed! Ehe..

ITB held its 18^th Convocation for Intake 22 on the 16^th of May, 2009. A very last minute I must say, we were informed only a week earlier..i was expecting it to be on the 23^rd, but..yea, it turned out good at the end..ehe..coz I could never been happier to be around with my lovely classmates n loved ones. It’s mcm reunion all over again, to be wif all the lecturers, catching up stories wif the colleagues, ada yg bekraja udh, ada yg in the process of looking out for jobs n lastly, to be wif my other half...

I would never think that my graduation day would be so special..never expect dat someone special to be there wif me..beside my parents ofcourse..ehe..but he’s around..we r graduating together..taking pictures, enjoying the lovely, happy moments..i’m proud of him..and I thank Allah for all the good things that happen between us..we had been perfect together =)

And…this week is great as well..we do keep in touch everyday..n right now, i’m waiting for another DN moments this weekend..yeay..i really, really can’t wait my dear..

* for the graduation momento, u all can see them at my fb ayte =)

Truly his...Neesa

She cries today...

Just had a bad, rough day at work just now...and i think being so self-involved is totally full of damn crap! And yeah, i'm lashing all my dissapointment and anger thru driving after work..huhu..after i arrived at the tuition centre, i just stayed for a while in the car to calm and ease my mind...listening to songs..tried to call him just to hear his voice but i bet he's sleeping, so i msg a fren instead..hmm, will talk to her abt it tomorrow mrng at work, so had to go there earlier lah ni to spill out everything..miss my punching bag, he will know how to make me feel so much better..i want to stop all these..i think i'm gonna let everything go~i will let it go..i'm quitting..

Truly crushed...Neesa