L.O.V.E.

It's exactly 3.26am now....i juz had my dinner td or shud i called it my supper or my so-called early breakfast...haha..yea, i got caught up wif the series smpai aku nda sadar kn mkn...but till td, aku rasa lapar berabis so i had decided to cook my own meal...but my meal is the so called American Breakfast th plng...i had made myself scrambled egg td wif sausages n my LIFE chilli sos...n the results, i'm full...whehe...f ada pan cakes wif honey, my so-called breakfast juz now will be complete, huh? ehe...next tym then...Insya Allah...

Guess wat, i was busy browsing the internet td ptg n finally, i got the song that i had been searching for months now! Kinda hard to find since i only know the singer sja, not the name of the song...n i barely ingat the lyrics..it's the very old song plng but, yea...classics rawk so pham2 lh kn...aku yg jenis memajal ani...in the end, i got it....so, here's the lyrics:

Dengan bahasa kalimah yang sama

Puji dan memuja

Dilindung dan dibuka

Rahsia kan tetap rahsia…

Indah bukan rupa

Harum bukan bunga

Manis bukan gula

Panas bukannya bara

Cinta kan tetap cinta…

*

Sejak aku kenali

Cintamu yang suci

Aku telah berjanji tak berpaling lagi

Akan aku genggam api

Hingga jadi besi

Dan nyata sebati…

**

Gelap bukan malam

Terang bukan siang

Satu tak terbilang

Hanyut tak terenang

Waktu tak terasa

Rindu tak terkata

Asyiknya cinta…

Repeat **

Dan hanya kepadamu

Ku serah jiwa ragaku

Walau berjuta seteru

Tak ku ragu…

Repeat * & ** (2x)

The above song was from the 90's Malaysian Band group, Damasutra...the title is Damai...finally! U know wat's so great about the song...the lyrics! Yup, no doubt abt that...the one i highlighted in red are wat i LOVE most...i think they best defines wat LOVE is all abt...it makes u crazy n out of ur mind...at least I'm...

Yg pentingnya, when i saw him, my heart goes dup dap...dup dap....dup dap...n i dun think it will ever fades away, evnthough it's been a year plus we had been together...i want my heart goes dup dap..dup dap...dup dap...forever for him, no one else. I still can't see right thru' his eyes without blinking even...i tink i got to work on that as well...he always brag that he won all the times...n u know y dear? coz i let u..dat's y..kalau nda, me yg slalu manang d battle tu...ehe..nada bh...juz kidding...seriously, ryte now...i keep on thinking of ur eyes...n ur teasing to me...n yea, u know wat i miss most abt u...ur s***t. *winks*

Truly his...Neesa

Not a good one

Gd mrng Brunei...i'm having insomnia again...blurgh! I want my sleep as usual...not like this...my head is already feeling the pain lately...kdg2 lack of sleep n sometimes ter overslept...went to hospital yesterday mrng n i need further appointment wif the doctor to have a detail or thorough medical checkup on what had been my problem for almost a year now...the pain come n go...n sometimes i pretend that i'm ok but infact i'm not infront of my parents...

I want that person to accompany me for the checkup tomorrow...but i figured out that particular person had plan, so i decided not to tell in the end. I had to attend my fren's wedding lagi ni esk...hmm...until now, i didn't know what gonna happen esk...deep down, i wanna join CTO for the business seminar jua...hmm...three things in 1 day...huhu...i dunno mana satu kn dipilih...

I felt today is no fun...i felt so empty...soul less...i'm totally blank...i'm missing THE thing...but i keep on searching what is THE thing that i need to make my life full....ergh....i wish i can tell...it's too depressing to put in words...too hard to put in a sentence....to sacred to share wif others...to fragile to talk abt that i'm afraid that i could end up feeling angry or menyumpah2 arh someone....

I checkup my folders n come across one of the major projects that i did back at my college. When i was browsing thru them, i extremely hate to flashback wat had happenned in this year...i was right initially...i should trust my first instinct...i made a mistake of ignoring that before and eventually, i had to pay for all that...sabar sja th~

I believe now that among other creatures that HE created, the humans are being the cruelest and the nastiest...u wanna know y? Bcoz a cat doesn't feed on another cat...a tiger doesn't hunt for another tiger...they will look out for other animals other than their own types...BUT ppl are indeed different! They envy each other, they backstab their own frens, they hate one another, the worst is they even murder or kill their own ppl, their own creatures...and i'm talking about the group of creatures that were given akal n fikiran by HIM!

The good thing is not all ppl are like that....some shares their loves wif the rest of the world n had done miracles to others...i salute them for that....i will always remember that all the good deeds will be paid generously by HIM at the after world....

Owh well..sorry peeps for such a depressing post from me this tym...i'm juz feeling preety bad myself today....tension ku brabis!!! Sasak ku kn kedia...berabisly!!! Ahh...screw u...


Truly done waiting...Neesa

The Blessings

Received an email from CTO few days back & I would like to share these wif the rest =)

Sesungguhnya wanita dijadikan daripada rusuk kiri lelaki.
Dia bukan dicipta dari kepala ke kaki, juga bukan dari tapak kaki.
Dia dicipta dari sebelah rusuk kiri lelaki supaya dia hampir kepada kamu (lelaki),
lengan lelaki dicipta untuk mempertahankan wanita,
dekat dengan hati lelaki untuk disayangi.


Woman was made from the rib of man,
She was not created from his head to top him,
Nor from his feet to be stepped upon,
She was made from his side to be close to him,
From beneath his arm to be protected by him,
Near his heart to be loved by him.

Truly blessed...Neesa

HND Holder Already!

Thursday, 18^th Dec 2008 at 5pm – Intake 22 results were out & I…Neesa N…passed!!! =)

Me btolak dri KB arnd 2.30pm coz had been told earlier that the results will be out arnd 4.30pm…so, no rush...smpai ja d ITB, sumhow I felt numb sja, dun know kn felt happy or sad, kn crying or nervous. I juz feeling nothing…empty berabis!

On the way to bndr, my parents keep on teasing me yg I was plain quiet n how come there’s no one singing in the car (selalunya aku yg slalu menyanyi ni otw…huhu) n dat my dad insists kn minum ptg dulu before kn ITB. Menyaya th banar…nda durng ingau kh resultku kn kuar…huhu…aku plng kabak2 n nda tantu rasa ni olehnya…nya my dad, jgnth ingau, ok ko tu bh…deep down, I felt very pressured n afraid that I will let them down this tym…huhu…aku blajar last minute kali a...all of the students waited till 5pm n eventually, after penantian yg amat menyiksakan…our results were out.

But, I dun suddenly rushed ksana, I juz stayed rh tangga arnd 10mins kali…I dun tink think dpt meliat jua, bnyk kali a org a…aku th lagi yg “tinggi” ani…haha…cnfirm th tenggelam n nda nmpk! When nda bnyk org lg, bruth ku come closer n meliat…n there it is….saye passed!!! Nda puas hati, ku liat lg skali…memajal jua bnr…lurus pnya, juz in case bh, tkut salah liat…menyasal krg…nda ja? Waaa…nda ku sangka…tkut ku udh tu, I dun want a resit coz it scares hell out of me psal there’s only 50-50 chances n I dun tink I cud make it if that’s the case…I will freaked out easily! N when I freaked out…things will not go smoothly…huhu…kajar2 th ku tu…

And wat make all of these evn more sweeter is that honey saye pun passed!!! Whehe…U made me proud love…I knew u can make it…ehe…we finally made it...bila kitani kn celebrate dear? =P I miss u much already...

Now, the job hunting officially begins…n yea, I kept on dreaming dh abt the graduation day…whehe…semangat much! Nda jua papa kn…sja kn menghiburkn hati…I felt down lately psal ingaukn results n now all of my emotions r filled wif HAPPINESS!!! Hmm…now I realized that all my sacrifies, times, efforts n tears had been paid! Big time!

Thank U especially for ppl who keep on pushing me to my maximum limits, motivating & supporting me, advising me n praying for my own sake…my parents, MMHA n my frens (the names r too many to mention…ehe). Kamu semua r the bomb! The world is no longer juz black n white for me…u guys make it more colourful wif ur own crayons! Whehe…apakn? *winks* Lastly, I think I better stick wif the last-minute studying sja kali since it alwez work for me…I did my best when I study last minute. U guys should explore more on what type of learning skills n styles that fit u correctly ayte, remember study smart not hard!


Truly had made my parents proud...Neesa

The perfect one

Exactly at 6.30pm last Monday, I saw him! Walking towards me…smiling…in blue…n then, sitting next to me. That moment, I felt relieved brabis…the last date was on my first day of exam n it’s been a month!

Dynie n I talked for a while in his car after that n I’m honestly felt that I fell for him all over again on that very night coz surprisingly, it’s more of everything when it’s been a while nda jumpa. Well…I dunno abt other couples, but somehow, distances will make u evn more closer than when u are infact very close to each other…dat’s wat I thought. Like the Malays saying, “Jauh tapi Dekat”…we had dinner n mcm biasa, he did make me smile throughout the conversation…he nvr fails to make me laugh when he's arnd…dat’s wat i fancy abt him, since dat day was his first day of work, he shared me abt his experience n mine abt my recent trip to KK…

We went to d Mall for a while n ended up watching "The Day The Earth Stood Still" at qlap wif my sisters n cuzzy in the end due to unfavourable seats earlier at d Mall. Thru’out the movie…Dynie kept on explaining me the scenes, as if ia udh meliat…when I asked, he juz smiled. Deep down, I know cnfirm th ia dh meliat tu, nda jua ia ani membaritahu awl2 td ia dh meliat…ehe…nda papa lh, u juz dangani duduk d sebalah sja *winks* Near to midnight, we were separated again…hw i wish the time stopped n we cud spend more wif each other...

When I’m in the car otw balik k KB, I kept on thinking abt the encounter wif Dynie earlier dat nyte. Wow…felt happy to the max, mcm it’s felt like 1 yr nda jumpa n today, all feelings r out…everything was juz perfect! Ehe…not enuf wif that, otw balik, he accompanied me by smsing so that nda jua sleepy…n yes dear, I wanna see more of u again! Soon perhaps? *winks* Ti Amo MMHA!


Truly loved...Neesa

Tagged by Leena

Rule 1: People who have tagged must write their answers on their blog. Replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule 2: Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. Those people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

1. Who is ur favourite soccer player?
- Not so much of a soccer fan, but my fav. will be Michael Owen

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger den you?
- I can’t say much…it’s my heart to make the decision not my mind…ehe

3. What does friendship means?
- Be sad n crying sma2, be happy n laugh sma2 & erm…do wild stuff sma2 jua =P

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- bayar zakat harta, naik haji wif family, make wise investment decisions to hv a return of another billion dollars so dat the circles of money won’t end!!! Whehe…

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- I ever did! Wrong decision…the friendship will never be the same again…hmm..

6. Favourite type of music
- For me, music is the universal language…so, any type of music will do with me. Enjoy listening to diff. types of music…try me! Ehe…but I prefer Pasha Ungu *winks*

7. If the person you like is secretly attached, what would you do?
- Auch…dat’s gonna hurt…I guessed I will be secretly got hurt then = (

8. Is there anything that has made you really happy?
- Yup, when he’s arnd = )

9. What makes you angry?
- When I’m being forced to do something that I dun want or not agreed upon…saye tak suka dipaksa2…chewah…ehe

10. How do you see yourself in 10 yrs time?
- Degree holder, happily attached, blessed wif cute n smart kids, good paid job…hopefully living my dream life…

11. Who is currently the most important to you?
- My family, MMHA n my close frens

12. What is the most important thing in your life?
- Trust, loyalty n respect. Without them, I will be lost n shallow…

13. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Single n rich. Pastu, bru dpt kawin, psal dh kaya…apakn? Haha…

14. What is your favourite colour?
- G****. Sapa dpt teka, ku bagi hadiah…whehe

15. Would you give your all in a relationship?
- All? Define all? Hmm…I will give my all when I’m officially attached to my man.

16. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- Neither. I will opt for a vacation or a time-out instead…huhu...

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that sum1 has done?
- I’m also human. I will forgive but sadly, I will never forget. It’s my thing, I will always remember what good or bad things that others had done to me.

18. What do you want to tell the person you like?
- I wanna know u more better = )

19. Which countries would you want 2 go?
-Dubai for my honeymoon, Paris for my wedding anniversary n Maldives for my b’day celebration..whehe.. *winks*

Tag 5 people to do this quiz ryte?? So I wil tag...
-I tag no one this tym. But, u r all welcome to do the tag. You’re it! = )

Truly happy bcoz of yesterday...Neesa

M8 & W7

Its 2.40am!!! Hai lah mata~ knapa lah engkau tak mau pajam2 jua? naleh ku menunggu kn tdo ni...huhu...hai lah neesa~ knapa lah kau nda pujuk matamu supaya pajam...dpt jua kau tdo nyenyak...hai lah minda~ majal jua eyh...alum jua mau mataku kn tdo ni...huhu...sigh! panat th bnar...i need a doctor plz! Whehe...dokter cinta perhaps? ^_^

I juz came back to Brunei last tuesday night...ada family vacation, a road trip to KK...whehe...i hv lots of fun wif the family...it's been a while nda ada family vacation, n i like the road trip much coz we got to do a lot of sight-seeing thru'out the journey...no pictures yet, malas kn upload, next tym ayte! Aku mau liat Twilight n makan ice-cream Swensons!!! Hmm...

Cemburu ku eyh my other half dpt krja dh, he will be starting this Monday...huhu...i"m happy for him, aku bah...i need to wait for my results dulu n see wat i can do after that...so, for now, i can juz wait, wait n wait. Do u know that ppl can die out of juz getting bored?! Ehehe...bahaya jua tu dh, aku bukan plng smpai tahap mcm atu, but, i will...evntually if aku juz stay cute sja d umh ni! Waa...kn blayar lg kali? ehe...kn kepisan, bru jua lapas belayar, kn belayar lg kali...hmm...mybe k Aussie...aga my fren d Gold Coast...i checked out td harga flightnya....fiuh! F kn ksana, i need to worry abt foods n shopping sja, f transportation n accomodation, she had a house n krita dsana..so, at least kurang ckit expenses ku...hmm...i dun no, mcm half-half jua atiku kn pegi...tkut ku blur otw kn ksana...ehe...bru jua komplen yg diri ni kurang ka-ching...makin th kurang f kn blayar k Aussie lg...ehe...adang2 th Neesa, mcm bekaraja dh usulnya! Mcm semua pun temping kn...mana th ulah! Huhu...

I still remember when i chat wif my fren few wks back...msa atu aku stress tahap maksima n nada dgn ku b MSN, so me dgn tahap gaban menagur lh my fren ani...we go way back plng, she's a fren back in my primary school n now she's married wif 1 kid working with the local bank. We chat n update abt each other's life...n i told her yg deep down, i'm tired of studying...mcm sometimes i perceives it more of a need instead of a want...i'm sure u guys know the diff between needs n wants ryte? When studying is no longer a want and it changed to a need, u will lose interest of studying n overtime, u will be mengusut-ing evrytym ada assignments...huhu...but, being such a good sport, she adviced me that f me kuat ati kn study, juz proceeds and go for it...whehe...mcm at that moment, trus kami dua buat wishlists...ehe...aku mau krja, dpt gaji tinggi 2 ribu plus plus, bali barang2 branded yg mahal n blayar tiap2 tahun...haha...trus ku motivated! Whehe...nada wh, atu sja supaya kn membakar semangat sja tu, f nda, nada th mood kn moving forward...nda ja? Ja~

Btw, knapa kn KB mcm sunyi ja lately...boring eyh...cuti jua ni...mana peginya all KBians? Kmu migrate n krja d Bndr udh ka...atau dh bjumpa bf/gf org bndr, then, kmu get married, stay n krja d Bndr dh? :P I love my hometown n i miss bndr as well...so badly...especially the lambak kanan part...ehem...n i want to get a job so that i can go out from my nutshell n spend my ka-ching on my wish-lists....btw, dmana ku menyimpan wish-list ku a...*mencari d sebalik katil n almari*

Happy Working w0nd3rse7en

&

remember the 3 secs rule k
(kalau more than that, juz close ur eyes :p)

Truly Miracle8...Neesa

A hole in my heart

I miss him...wish dat u can be here within a blink of an eye! Wish dat u can teleport here awal ani jua...can u? for me...plz =)

Truly kecarian...Neesa

Tagged by Khaty

What's the relationship of you with him/her?
- she's my roommate

5 impression towards him/her
- suka nyanyi rh K-box
- suka nyanyi rh bilik
- suka pasang lagu tym tdo
- good accompany
- crazy abt red all the tym

The most memorable thing that she/he said to you?
- "miss ka neesa..." =)

The most memorable thing that she/he have done to you?

- bnyk jua lh...we shared our junk foods n btolak ansur wif each other, f me kn blajar tngh mlm till subuh, she allowed me to switch on the lights for me to study...thanks for understanding dear...i did the same thing for her as well...

If she/he becomes your lover, you will...
- astaghfirullah..we r BFF kali a... =)

If she/he becomes your enemy, you will...
- it can't be coz she's the nice person to be with..

If she/he becomes your love, she/he has to improve on....

- nothing...nda semestinya our half hv to be mr.perfect...a relationship is abt completing one another, ryte? =)

If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is?
- ehe...i dun think so lah...

The most desirable things to do on him/her is?
- being her fren n be there when she is in need of something

The overall impression on him/her is?
- merah jua ko Kat! =P

How do you think people around you feel about you?
- i dunno...i can't read their minds...

The character of you about yourself is?
- i love green...it eases n calms my mind...

On contrary, the character of yourself you hate is?
-last-minute person!

The most ideal person you wanna be is?
-hmm...anth a... i love to be me...just the way i am =)

For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them
-"U guys meant the world to me & u guys rawk!!!"

10 people you tag:

1. Dane Henry
2. Airul
3. Ammie Purple
4. CTO
5. Zetty
6. Faiz-HS
7. Ryan Indra
8. Khaty
9. Leena 21'
10. Nurul

Who is No. 2 having relationship with?
- i think he's still single and available..ehe

No. 3 is a female or male?
- female

If No. 7 and No. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
- No. 10 ni taken..yg no. 7 ni...ehe...u ready dh kn?

How about No. 5 and No. 8

- i'm not sure they're still available ka nda..what say u? jawap..jgn tak jawap..aku curious ni...ehe

What is No. 1 studying about?
- HND in Business & Finance Management

Is No. 4 single?
- nda...ia ada cynta nya udh *winks*

Say Something about No. 6

- sma attachment @ DST wif me, tp bukan d HQ. And he makes fren easily psal he's such a chatterbox...ehe...btw, its's a compliment tu a...

Truly jobless...Neesa

The Urge

I wore ur jacket today...i can feel as if u're close to me the whole day...i want to feel the way i felt today again tomorrow...so, i think i should wear ur t-shirt tomorrow as well... =)

I wanna drive again...

I wanna go out n worry about nothing...

I juz wanna have fun n live my life to the fullest...


Truly...Neesa

Special days

I owed u guys something ryte...so, here goes:

I've been bz last mnth...as i mentioned earlier in my previous post, 2 family celebrations dat were my parents' wedding anniversary n my 23rd b'day, the ITB-related stuff which was my khatam, the 'the' occasion which was our anniversary and the life changing moments which were my final exams...

Another to add in my first time lists dat is celebrating my very special day wif MMHA. It was my first...n yea, wat make me evn more excited was 'his look' when i'm in his car, mcm it feels different...whehe...as usual, i tried to shield my nervousness at dat moment. Then, i realised him wearing blue, sama colour lh wif mine...although he kept on insisting that it was a black shirt...ehe...it was blue my dear...wow, we do think alike...again! We dun plan on wearing the same colour...ehe...he was having a major SDP presentation in the mrng at ITB n after that, he picked me up n we spent the rest of the day together. We jln2 skajap d serusop, had lunch at McD's, movies at the Mall n Empire & lastly, a nice, quiet dinner at Capers. I had a very good laugh on dat day due to Madagascar n him *winks* n the background musics at Capers, i totally love it! Something happened there as well, i'm gonna remember those moments as well coz for me, it's kinda unusual n rarely happened...unique yet kinda funny jua...ehe. N yea, thank U for the b'day song dear, ayu bnar ur voice. =p U gave me the experience that i never had...ever, entirely in my life. The finale on dat day was so great...hmm, i never thaught that i ever gonna do wat i did n feel the way i totally felt...but, I did n i felt it! We had a nice talk over dinner, ur silly jokes yg eventually make me feel bdusa rh ur HOD (huhu...a trick qn th bnr!) && i had a blast watching 007 d Empire with u...the same seat as the last tym wif the same amount of feelings...I'm happy!

Thanks to CTO, Rat n Zian for helping me out wif my baju-hunting...ehe...u guys are just plain awesome...i like the baju...so much! Thanks for my frens n hstlites who greet me personally on dat day, who gave me a call, who greet me at FB, Friendster, emails n last but not least, yg msging me...To Airul n Hafiz...both of u udh ku maafkan...ehe...tahun dapan jgn buat lagi a =P It's somewhat different this year n i'm thankful for it...juz sad that it's been 2 yrs in a row that my family wasn't arnd to greet me personally...last year i got to work n this year, i've been bz wif the exams preparationsn me nda balik to KB...at least they gave me a call...ehe...so, yea, i'm not complaining...

Our anniversary was on the Nov, 24th...not so much of a celebration for both of us since he got exam on dat day n i'm going to have my ppr on the next day...he evn joke abt postponing to Dec...dpt kn tu dear? ehe...we juz chat over the MSN n sort of 'accompanying' each other while we study...a little bit sad that we cudn't meet up juz for a while...but yea, f he cud stand it...why can't I? nda ja? ja....

At this very moment, i'm listening to Ungu-Tercipta Untukku...i love this song soo damn much...it really means something to me...the lyrics itself is way too deep...me n MMHA dun hv a song plng, but personally, this is the song dat alwez make me think of him...mcm f dngr lagu ani tiap kali, he kept on popping out my head sja...whehe...romantic much...i alwez kept this song in my playlist n enjoy listening to it from time to time...over n over again...smpai c Naim pun apal dh! haha...

It's gonna be the end of year 2008...it's juz arnd the corner...Nov n Dec r really special to me...probably it's the time when magical moments are all arnd..the time where happiness are juz nearby...the time where i will alwez remember him sending me to hstl every single nyte since we went out so often right after work...ehe...u still remember those? I still do...all dat happened, it's feel like baru yesterday...time really flies when u're enjoying urself, huh? ehe...It's been 20 days since we last met...n I'm missing u already...hmm...it's 5.40am oredi...i better get some sleep now...huhu...chow!


Truly missing u...Neesa

Awaken

This is my first entry since...erm...before the exams. Wat abt the exam? I honestly dunno...i'm clueless whether i did well or not...the upcoming results r making me plain restless...i can't expect anything, i dun evn know wat to expect! N yea, i'm still awake at this tym...biasa, when holls come, my beauty sleep will be anytime...huhu...its 4.15 am n within few hrs time, i'm gonna off to Miri, makan 40 hari for my late nini...

I went back to KB last saturday, right after my last ppr...actually kn celebrate wif him after that for mybe a double celebration, turned out that he got major things to do, so, yea...due to that, i decided to go home 1 day earlier...miss home soo badly. its been nearly 3wks nda balik...n i miss a lot of things, my bed, my bro n my room especially...ehe...now i'm back for good...i tink i'm gonna do something wif my crib...make it erm...more cozy perhaps? ehe...something for me to work on this holls...spring cleaning on the way...

I evn plan wana hv a vacation..juz to ease my mind...do a little shopping therapy to make me feel good...ehe...the family had been planning for a week vacation but the plan is yet still pending due to the fact that my lil bro is having a chicken pox! haha...n he's alwez limpang2 on my bed...i got to be extra careful wif that...n yea, he became more manja...kn minum pun minta kna amblkn...owh well~ cian jua liat the spots all over him, tapikn cute...polka dots! ehe...im juz being nice n dulur sja apa yg ia mau...hope that he's doing well soon n we cud go away for a holiday since babah is having his holls as well...f nda smpat, i cud join my fren blayar in January sja...wat worry me most is my personal expenses since the elaun will be on hold after this...shud i spent all of my money on the vacation or maybe juz skip the trip n save the money for better use? hmm...

I had a lot of thoughts lately...hw i wish to become invinsible n juz see right thru ppl...not literally plng...i juz want to know who's the good guy n who's the bad guy...who's a fren n who's the enemy...who's a backstabber and a suck-up...can i? i wish i can...aren't ppl getting tired of becoming so fake? Y can't they juz be true to themselves? why do they evn hv to lie? Does it bring them any good? I know that we need to lie once in a while to make others feel good n happy...but wat abt urself? Who will make u feel happy? No one cares right? hmm...u're just not being fair to others...u got to be honest...i know it's gonna hurt but it will bring less pain now that at the later time...juz shoot the truth...will u?


Truly down...Neesa

Study Mode

"My Breathing Space" will be back after the exam period is over. My ITB finale will be starting this coming Nov, 15th up till Nov, 29th. In between these days, many important dates in my life will take place...so stay tune readers n i'll be coming back with the juicy details...ehehe... *winks*

Very best of luck (i hardly believe in luck though...hard work is the key to get whatever dat u want in life) n work hard, especially for the rest of my ITB mates, regardless whether they are from BM, CIS, CE, ECE n ME. Class of 2008...this is definitely it guys! Fasten ur seat belt, ladies n gentlemen, coz it's gonna be one heck of a bumpy ride n lots of potholes n humps as well...eheh...

STUDY SMART, MAY ALLAH BLESS US ALL & REWARDS US WITH SATISFYING RESULTS IN THE END...AMIN... =)

To my other half, hopefully both of us gonna make through our final year with flying colours n make our parents proud of us...Insya Allah.

Truly aiming for the star...Neesa

To whom it may concern

Here I am...what were your other 2 wishes?

- Disini Untukmu -

=)

Truly yours...Neesa

24 years of love

What time is it? Its November again~ Lots will be happening to me during this month...2 family celebrations, the ITB-related stuff, the 'the' occasion (n i'm smiling...) and the life changing moments...these 5 things. The very vital and really crucial events in my life....

To mama n babah qu...

* HAPPY 24th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY - 04/11/2008 *

the VIP in my life...muahz!

I wish for endless n everlasting happiness and love to mama n babah, semoga sihat walafiat sentiasa n panjang umur...i'm blessed to be their first daughter n being gifted by the Almighty to have both of them as my parents...rasa bersyukur sngt2 coz they still be able to laugh together n in love wif one another. Mama cooked the best dishes in the whole wide world n babah keep on asking me to blajar masak from her. I did...but still, hers are still the best...i know why, psal ada mother's touch bah...dat's wat i lack of n i did told babah abt it n his replied was "ada-ada sja alasan nya anak surang ani..." Banar jua tu kn readers...i'm sure u guys will agree wif me, ryte? Ur mum cooking will have the extra edge yg u can't compete bh...at least, dat's wat i thought.

N babah, he's always wif his silly jokes n patience. He can cook as well. I love his fried rice wif corn beef...nyum2...lapar ku plng trus. He much of like a fren to us instead of juz being a strict father. N kdg2, he can be mcm kanak2 jua coz i still ingt, tym dulu2, when i'm in secondary school, ada Dragonball series d TV, ia minta kmi (either one of my siblings or me) rakamkn Draganball 4him using the tape recorder d umh when he's out for work. N kdg2 he dangani kmi liat ceta Doraemon n Power Rangers tym kami damit...ehe...ktanya dulu2 tym he was a child, he dun hv the privilege to watch cartoons n stuffs...n now dat we had Naim, both of them will watch Ultraman n Spongebob Squarepants together whenevr he got free tym. Cool huh? ehe...

Truly wanna make both of them proud of me...Neesa

My luvee

This post especially goes out to no other than, my significant other...

i just wanna tell you this...

I wanna thank you for loving me as much as i do,
I wanna thank you for treating me so well, that i simply couldn't ask for more,
I wanna let you know that i appreciate every single thing that u've done for me,
I wanna thank you for spending time with me for the whole week,
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you & Thank you, hon =)

If i had the whole world to write on to express how much I love you, i'm sure it wouldn't all fit..

And another thing that you should know,

Tomorrow is gonna been 11 wonderous months already,
Many more months and years to come for us both, Insya Allah...
And ohh, we're just 1 month away to our 1st year, kn? can't wait for it! whehe...


Truly MMHA's...Neesa

Technique - qu!

My ITB finale countdown: 22 more days to go...

All my 2.5 yrs of life will be determined by a series of assessments dat we all called EXAMS...alum lg ku ready bui bui~huhu...about 3 wks from now, i will be having my EXAM FEVER...i still remember i will always be damam-ing evrytym i'm having a life changing moments or something important in my life...it can be a cold, damam or sore throat...msti ada2 sja tu...nda pndai miss...some say bcoz u worry too much, ada ckp coz nda cukup rehat or tidur...dat's why i ended up like that...hmm...i'm a type of person dat worry 'a little bit too much' n it will gradually affecting my health condition...i will skip evrything evn my meals when something BIG happens, like exams, orals or presentations...when all are officially over, then i will feel hungry right after that...kira sanang ati th tu dat it was all over...my mum always tagur this attitude of mine coz she said that it's not healthy after all...n yea, i admit that i'm officially the person who always did my work on the very last minute...i tried to plan n do things earlier but...dat's will not juz be me...so, i had to accept the fact that i'm the last minute type of person, but i will try to improve on my habits by studying n revising earlier for my exams....hmm...22 more days to go n yet, i'm still haven't started my revisions yet *kira last min jua tu dh!* panat...my oh my... -_-"

Truly mixed...Neesa

Raya-ing with Hstelites

Datin CTO & Datin Zian :P

Scrumptious Cakes, Kek Roll & Tapak Kuda @ Wrdn's crib

The Girls

Khaty, Leena, Sur & Mitch

Khaty, Sur, Leena & Me

Penuntut Asrama Puteri SVNR

Penuntut Asrama Putera SVNR

Penuntut Asrama Putera SVNR & Ka Bibi

Penuntut Asrama Puteri SVNR & Ka Bibi

Us...

Zian, Me & CTO @ Wrdn's

The rest of d girls...

All the girls were invited for raya-ing at Wrdn's crib on Monday afternoon, Oct, 13th . All d Itb-ians kn kesana since kmi alum g beraya rh wrdn, the rest had been there the previous week before since their school re-opened earlier by 1 wk than us. But, yea...durng pun ikut beraya lg sekali...ehe...it was raining n we got no netball practise dat afternoon, so join sja lh trus...Wrdn cooked spaghetti n Butter Milk Chicken for all of us...they were delicious! Thanks Wrdn...ehe...

The next day, some boys n girls occupants of Hstl SVNR agreed to convoy-ing rh babu n kaka...5 cars altogether, we started at 7.30 pm and ended around 10 pm. Skali-skala jln sma durng...turned out not so bad at all *winks* , although we're from different backgrounds...we still managed to stay 'gila-gila' n 'gauks' sma2...eheh...and babu pun cooked something special for us dat night...langkah kanan bnr...c amid punya krja tu...*tau ku tu*


Truly delighted by my hstl life...Neesa

New Uni in Brunei

"Brunei now has another university. His Majesty the Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Brunei Darussalam revealed that Brunei's Institute of Technology, "Institute Technology Brunei" (ITB), has been officially upgraded to university status. The educational institute will, however, retain its old name."

- By Syafiq Affendy

[Click here for more]

p/s: Thanks for His Majesty for the upgrading of ITB to university. There will be more degree courses available in yr 2009. Something that i will look forward to, Insya Allah.

Truly thankful as Rakyat Kebawah Duli...Neesa

All the LOVE in the world

Did u guys ever encounter a moment when u want ur other half to say the things that u actually want instead of u telling him/her wat u want...kiranya u want him/her to speak for urself...having the initiatives to headstart instead of u sja yg step up...well, there's nothing wrong plng if u're always the one yg step up, but once in a while (or once in a blue moon...eheh), it's great n nice to see someone else did it instead of u all the time...kn? kn? *winks*

Last nyte, in the car, when he was about to sent me home, it was confusing brabis...we keep on talking the same thing over n over again on wat r we supposed to head the day after which is today...i'll keep on saying it's up to him n dat i duno wat else we're supposed to go or do...actually, in my mind at that particular tym, i wanna catch a movie since it's been a while we didn't watch mvie sma2...but i was hoping he's gonna ask me 1st, n for sure a definite YES would be the ans to it..somehow both of us keep on hitting around the bushes instead of juz being straight wif each other...haha...lastly,apa nh! U wanna watch a mvie kh? he said. I replied, mau...skalinya the car was full of our laughters...i really can't help it..mcm dri td we keep on saying n keep on saying, cna ni? cna th ni? In the end...we actually know wat we want..nganya both of us reluctant to say or giving our own opinion...seriously, i cudn't stop smiling n laughing in the car...n so did he!

I dun know his intention...izit sja kn tease me or it juz so happen spontaneously, coz he's been doing that since afternoon till dat nyte...i dun mind actually, but thing really got out of hand dat nyte, mcm surang2 pun blur duno wat to say to each other...i had been recalling 'the moment' up till now, come to think of it, it will evntually put a smile on my face...wat a happiness, truly happy as per adanya dia...n i still do till now...

This week had been the wonderous of all compared to few months back...i got to spend my day , infact almost everyday wif dynie...what more cud i ask for? ehe...suka banget! We juz had the chance to visit our frens n celebrate raya together yesterday...huhu...d 16th raya, i dun mind the lateness asal it's still raya n ppl r still celebrating it ryte...my first raya wif my other half (another first tym moment for me, a must add-on to my 'first time' list later ni...ehe). We went to Kerol's crib at Lumapas n Amal's at Mata-Mata...then, we headed to another destination before he sent me home.

And yea, i'm looking forward for later as well...we gonna go out later for raya n a movie session...ehe...aren't life are getting better these days huh? I'm so loving it...juz enjoying my moment for a while before the exam season gonna strike me within 3 wks from now...huhu...and for the record, MMHA, W7 and dynie is the same person k guys...i'm not dating 3 individual persons at the same tym...huhu...atu kepisan th bnar! *jauh palis* :P


Truly enjoying my moments wif him...Neesa

Related

It's been a while I didn't blog...unexpected things happened but hey...i'm definitely back! ehe...was back to KB for the raya holls n to tell u the truth, my raya is not as enjoyful as i thought it wud be, i was hoping it's gonna be at least much better than last year since i got to work and all that...but, guess wat? Mcm sama ja even though ada cuti 2 wks...erm...myb psal ada 2 assignments to be handed in when ITB reopens...dat's why...i juz realised my cribs r not as big as the rest of the families that i had known...in Brunei, i counted it cud be least than 20 families sja, or it cud be less than 10! huhu...in Bandar, i juz had my aunt's family, my dad's sis who live in Lambak...the rest r evenly distributed in KB and Miri...msuk trus geography ku...eheh...

In Miri, i dun actually know the families quite well except for the cuzzies n cloz relatives ja...yg the rest tu, i dun evn know how r they related in my family trees...i mean mama n babah keep on repeating the same things evry yr how r they related to us...kdg2 kn tym ku bsalam tu, i dun evn know kn panggil ami ka, ibu ka, nini ka, uncle ka, apa ka...huhu...juz to be safe, i juz smiled at them...cana th jua, mun nganya jumpa setahun skali, mana jua dpt the feel or aura of being a family atu...sometimes i'm wondering...will i be able to pay them a visit nanti alone n not to feel awkward abt it without my parents? coz seriously, i dun evn know apa kn d ckp sma durng, nasib jua i know how to speak n listen to bahasa Kuching (meow? bukan yg atu...ehe) at least tau jua ku apa yg durng kurapak kn...f not, i'll be so lost berabis-ly!

At home, my family communicated in bruneian n ckp Kuching jua...so, i dun find it hard to cope f the families from Sarawak come n pay us a visit...coz i felt confident dh wif the language...my parents taught us well...eheh...evn Naim now know how to speak the language, mcm cigunya pun heran, tp she understood the language plng since she's a Malaysian...she did ask my dad kmi d rumah ckp apa? My dad answered her that we mixed, sumtym ckp Brunei n Kuching jua...tp nya guys, u will be astonished to hear f c Naim ckp...he's using the standard malays n bahasa semenanjung jua...eheh..i guess he's learning all those from the TV n stuff...semua tu ketawa mendangar ia bcakap...mcm pandai usulnya...belabih th bnar...

N btw, better late than nvr kn...i would like to wish my families, MMHA & friends "SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN". I'm blessed that i got to experience raya again this year...No raya pics so far...will post them later, Insya Allah.

"Every perfection in mine comes from the Almighty and the wrongdoings come from the imperfect me"

- Neesa N

Truly feeling blessed...Neesa

Foods Mania

Sia-sia pun...all looks tempting...huhu... *kes nada kraja tp kn mencari kraja, saye pun telah meng-explore the old pics in my Darrel* n this is the end results... *kweng 3*

Apa kes? :)

Truly jd lapar ku trus...Neesa

Kids!

He keep on insisting kn pakai d glasses & he's getting taller dis yr, tenggalam th kmi ada-beradi ni olehnya..haha..

Btw...who's this? :)

Bah...atu sja! whehe...

Truly still kids at heart...Neesa

In my scrapbook

What normally lingers in ur mind when u're keep thinking of a particular person?

Was the person actually worth ur thought?

Wat makes the person so 'special' that u keep thinking of the person all the time?

Kawan jua kali sja...but why ur heart beats faster when both of u gonna meet?

Just another friend ryte...but why u feel happy berabis when u was next to him?

Hanya kawan...but why u become speechless, what u intended to say in the first place is not exactly the same as what comes out from ur mouth?

Or maybe u are the one that had gone nuts or crazy?

Mcm tah nada hal lain yg kn dpikirkn?

But...still, u can't control ur mind ryte...

As if all the systems in ur body revolves or pointing towards this person...

Angau kali dh atau u're just being plain obsessive?

Can u actually tell the difference of love and the desire of having someone?

For me...there's only 1 thin line that separates both of them

Some ppl can't even differentiates them...

To love doesn't mean u got to have them

It also means letting them go..just to pursue their own happiness

To see the person u love happy is the greatest love of all...

It takes courage, being brave n sincere

I can't really do it...just not yet...

I can't afford of losing someone...again...

What am i supposed to do now?

To play safe or just go with the flow?

To juz let my heart unbend or shut the door so that i won't get hurt?

Hmm...

I found these when i'm doing spring cleaning at my room in KB...i was suprised to find it actually...wrote it last year, in October...during my attachment period...is it because love was already in the air back then? : )


Truly...Neesa